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Okay.
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You are very brave.
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To be brave for doing something.
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You live in Rome,
then you are brave.
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Okay, okay.
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First of all.
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Good.
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What did you do this morning?
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This morning I had some work to do
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'cause I'm still preparing
this new project.
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We are waiting for the money,
as usual it's not easy,
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but I'm confident
we're gonna find it.
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So, for homework.
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Write ten sentences
in past continuous tense
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using verbs you like.
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Any verb you choose, the important
is that is past continuous.
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Okay, wait.
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I have a little thing for you.
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Turn around, it's a surprise.
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Don't be scared.
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Do I have to make a wish?
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How's the baby?
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Good.
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Does she speak Italian?
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Yes, but also Moldavian, English.
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Bits of them together.
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It's complicated,
'cause I don't understand Moldavian.
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- It's the mother's fault.
- Yes!
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Women!
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- How are you?
- Good.
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It's not the season
for radicchio trevigiano, right?
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No, trevigiano is not now.
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I'll come back tomorrow
for pineapple and beans.
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- Hey!
- Hey!
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Mama?
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- Mama?
- Yes?
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- Well, can you... can you order?
- No, we did, we did.
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No, she told me
that she's, like,
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gonna take this little clay
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and put it
in another thing and...
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I can't understand shit.
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Yes, I put some salt.
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Let's put it all if...
if it's gonna last...
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Hey, when I... when I speak
to you in Italian, help me!
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Please don't answer
in English, huh?
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- Okay.
- Okay.
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- All right.
- Is it done?
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Yeah, no.
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Okay?
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- Two minutes and we eat.
- Okay.
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Mama, look!
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They are the only
two inhabitants.
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All that is heard
is the sound of their breath.
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Mother asleep by bar,
covered up and warm,
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but now appears...
appears far away.
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Clint kneels before the girl.
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Pupa, you hungry? Hungry?
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Yeah?
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Nikki, do you want a lot?
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Are you hungry?
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This.
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Put it.
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- Want some oil?
- No, grazie.
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So we're ready.
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- Yo.
- Hey.
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- Did she go down?
- Yes.
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- Easy?
- Finally.
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- Is she asleep?
- Finally asleep.
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I'm reading this thing,
I don't know...
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What is it about?
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No, it's, um, you know,
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it's the section with,
uh, you know,
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the thing that you...
the feeling is
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they traverse the galaxy
and now on the other side,
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they're... it's only
two inhabitants.
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All that is heard is
the sound of their breath.
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Mother asleep by bar,
covered up and warm,
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but now appears.
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Clint kneels
before Russian girl.
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That part.
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I just don't know
whether it's, um...
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too sentimental, or...
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And also, I...
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- No, it seems so sweet.
- I don't know...
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- You like it?
- Yes.
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I think it's very...
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It's like a dream, it's like...
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...something, you know,
out of this world.
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At least, you know,
you have a purpose to...
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No, I think...
I don't know.
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There's something wrong
about it, I don't know.
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I had something else
I wanted to...
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How are you?
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I'm tired.
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- Yeah?
- I'm tired.
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I'm tired, you know,
she's really...
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- She seems good, though, huh?
- She's good, but she's...
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You know, it's not like
you just stay with her.
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- I know.
- You really gotta be very...
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all your focus is only
the baby, the baby, the baby.
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- I know, I know, I know.
- You forgot about...
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I know it better than anyone.
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- Yes.
- I think, you know, it's normal
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with a baby, but, you know,
you just gotta...
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Unless you aren't happy
with me anymore.
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You don't even know.
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- Sometimes.
- I know, I know.
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- Sometimes.
- Wrong question.
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Sometimes I am...
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You know, sometimes you
just don't talk with me,
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you don't communicate with me,
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you don't...
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- I know.
- You know...
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- We get busy.
- You're so busy,
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and you forget about
that I'm a woman
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and I'm different.
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Okay, well, what should I know?
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Hmm?
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Yeah.
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You forget I'm a man, huh?
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This is what I'm talking about.
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I forget you're a man also
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because I have this little...
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baby.
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I know.
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Us.
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She's asleep now.
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Not here.
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Touch.
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It's so nice.
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Oh, such a beautiful ass.
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Oh, baby.
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Mama.
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- Mama.
- Wait.
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- The baby.
- What? The baby.
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Yes.
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- Wait a second.
- Mama, Mama.
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Oh! It's okay?
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Okay, sorry, I walked too fast.
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Okay.
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More?
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Elisa, don't be angry.
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I am angry.
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Go hug Anna.
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She is jealous...
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She's angry 'cause Anna
doesn't want to give her the bubbles.
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Anna, give her the bubbles.
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DeeDee.
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So fancy.
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What do you think?
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DeeDee.
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DeeDee, do you want
to go get ice cream?
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Ahh!
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- Ciao.
- What's happening?
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Oh my God, you look so good!
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Where have you been,
what you did?
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- Gelato.
- Gelato, fragola?
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Fragola.
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- Okay.
- Okay.
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Lisa... Lisa cried?
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Lisa cried?
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Why Lisa cried?
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Oh my God.
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It's okay.
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We're gonna come back.
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Yes, we're gonna still play
with her.
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I gotta do something
real quick, okay?
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Yes.
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Let's wash our hands.
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Exterior: snow country, day.
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Credits over wild
winter landscape.
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When I had been pondering
many things to myself
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for a long time
and had for many days
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been seeking my own self
and what my own good was
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and what evil
was to be avoided,
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it suddenly spoke to me.
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What was it?
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I, myself, or someone else,
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inside or outside me.
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This is the very thing
I would love to know
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but don't.
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Sexy, beautiful, stupid.
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It's important to find the gesture
in an organic way,
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a simple way.
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I like this movement.
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Two...
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Go back to the circle.
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Three, keep going.
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I want to say,
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the idea is,
these are all simple games,
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but I like very much the idea
of distraction,
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the double...
the double focus that you have,
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because you're all... for me,
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performing is always
between control and abandon.
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Okay. Um, so when we do some
of these distracting things,
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things that don't seem
to go together,
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it makes you feel off-balance,
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but if you can relax
in that state,
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it makes you
more emotionally available.
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Your job is to approach
that... that action that you know
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with a way that's not to show
but to do,
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to do the action,
do the action in a pure way,
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so the action is born,
and when the action is born,
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you have a reaction to it,
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and that propels you
to something.
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But it's sometimes
imitated emotion
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or demonstrated emotion,
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not really felt emotion
or experience.
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If you're only doing
emotional things
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that you feel safe with,
it's... it's for you.
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It's... you gotta go
beyond yourself.
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- Okay.
- We all know it in life.
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When we do things
and we forget about ourselves
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and we're just doing
the action in a pure way,
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that's when we get closer
to experiencing, for me,
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the beauty of life.
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So I'm making this movie
in Miami
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and I'm... I'm deep
into using crack cocaine.
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I'm drinking, heroin.
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I'm out, I'm out.
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Hey! Good to see you.
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- Yeah, I'm good.
- Good to see you.
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It's hot, but...
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Look at that fucking water.
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Like a beer.
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I'll see you down there
in a minute.
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Yeah.
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You know, and we're making
this movie in Miami
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at a time that Miami is, like,
the nightlife is exploding,
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and just made a movie...
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I don't have
my regular people with me.
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I gotta make a movie that's
gonna be the first video...
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movie shot with a video camera.
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I'm feeling really like it's...
I'm it, you know, I'm...
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my ego is like,
"I'm gonna do this thing,"
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and not only...
I'm gonna make a remake
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of La Dolce Vita.
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American remake,
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and I got this young Cuban actor
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and, uh, he's, uh,
he's down with it
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and he's also...
when I get there, you know,
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the guy's in rehab,
but I'm good with that,
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and I just gotta get him
out of rehab, and I do.
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I get him out of rehab.
I remember I even, you know,
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bringing him stuff
when he wasn't in rehab.
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He'd meet us outside...
outside the place,
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like middle of the night,
it was crazy.
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But I needed this kid.
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And, uh, one day, I'm...
I'm working on the set
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and I see this extra,
this chick, she's good looking.
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You know, I shouldn't be
messing with her,
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but I'm... I'm it, I'm having...
I can do whatever I want, right?
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I'm feeling strong
and I'm prancing.
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So I go out with her,
we're out late,
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and I go to my friend's place
that's got an all-night...
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it's like a diner,
but it's a hip place, you know,
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it's like a cool, fancy place.
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00:30:53,128 --> 00:30:57,732
I get in there, I lay some...
a hundred dollar bill on the bar
261
00:30:57,766 --> 00:30:59,768
and I say,
"Hey, buy these guys a drink."
262
00:30:59,801 --> 00:31:03,071
I go in, go out with
the owner of the place
263
00:31:03,105 --> 00:31:07,042
to do some stuff,
and when I come back,
264
00:31:07,075 --> 00:31:09,345
the chick's not there.
265
00:31:09,378 --> 00:31:11,913
Uh, you know,
266
00:31:11,947 --> 00:31:13,915
she's gone,
and the guy says,
267
00:31:13,949 --> 00:31:15,318
"Hey, who's gonna pay
for the drinks?"
268
00:31:15,351 --> 00:31:16,985
I said, "I left a hundred."
269
00:31:17,018 --> 00:31:19,688
He said, "No, no,
I didn't see any hundred."
270
00:31:19,721 --> 00:31:22,224
So I'm really pissed,
I get on the phone,
271
00:31:22,258 --> 00:31:24,960
and I get her number and I say,
"You fucking bitch!"
272
00:31:24,993 --> 00:31:27,162
You know,
really chew her out nasty,
273
00:31:27,195 --> 00:31:29,831
like mean, like crazy,
like, you know,
274
00:31:29,865 --> 00:31:34,002
she betrayed this... this guy
that was happening, you know.
275
00:31:34,035 --> 00:31:36,972
What I didn't know is
this girl had a boyfriend,
276
00:31:37,005 --> 00:31:41,109
and her boyfriend was crazy
about what she was doing
277
00:31:41,143 --> 00:31:44,779
with these movie people,
and he was crazy jealous.
278
00:31:44,813 --> 00:31:48,150
She talked about, you know,
being afraid of this guy.
279
00:31:48,183 --> 00:31:52,154
Well, I go back
to my South Beach motel,
280
00:31:52,187 --> 00:31:54,323
I forgot
to double lock the door,
281
00:31:54,357 --> 00:31:58,093
and I think I'm dreaming,
282
00:31:58,126 --> 00:32:00,028
I go to bed
and I think I'm dreaming
283
00:32:00,061 --> 00:32:02,265
that some guy's beating
the shit out of me.
284
00:32:02,298 --> 00:32:05,901
Wailing away on me,
just slamming me in the face.
285
00:32:05,934 --> 00:32:07,403
But I'm not dreaming.
286
00:32:07,436 --> 00:32:10,939
This guy came in,
he's the boyfriend,
287
00:32:10,972 --> 00:32:13,342
he's fucking, you know,
cursing me out
288
00:32:13,376 --> 00:32:16,745
about what I did to the girl,
and he's beating me really bad.
289
00:32:16,778 --> 00:32:20,148
My face is all blown up,
I mean, like this.
290
00:32:20,182 --> 00:32:25,354
The guy leaves, they grab me,
bring me to the hospital,
291
00:32:25,388 --> 00:32:27,856
you know, nobody's there,
I'm all alone, you know,
292
00:32:27,889 --> 00:32:31,193
and I'm messed up,
and my ego is so crazy
293
00:32:31,226 --> 00:32:34,029
that I also think
that they want to kill me,
294
00:32:34,062 --> 00:32:36,332
you know, I get
these paranoid thoughts of...
295
00:32:36,365 --> 00:32:39,234
All I can think about
is being safe.
296
00:32:39,268 --> 00:32:45,274
So, I... I hear that
there's a rehab place
297
00:32:45,308 --> 00:32:47,310
in this hospital
on the third floor,
298
00:32:47,343 --> 00:32:50,379
and it's kind of a lockdown,
like, only family can come,
299
00:32:50,413 --> 00:32:53,848
so I go into rehab.
300
00:32:55,183 --> 00:32:58,354
But I have no intention
of getting sober.
301
00:32:58,387 --> 00:33:01,424
None at all, I mean, this...
all this shit happens.
302
00:33:01,457 --> 00:33:03,326
I almost die, you know.
303
00:33:03,359 --> 00:33:06,462
Still, I don't get the idea
that, you know,
304
00:33:06,495 --> 00:33:08,297
what I'm doing is a problem.
305
00:33:08,331 --> 00:33:10,031
I'm still bigger than that,
306
00:33:10,065 --> 00:33:11,933
I'm still more important
than that.
307
00:33:11,967 --> 00:33:13,835
It still isn't occurring to me.
308
00:33:13,868 --> 00:33:16,171
It fucking...
it's hard to believe.
309
00:33:16,204 --> 00:33:18,940
I mean, this is 12 years before.
310
00:33:18,974 --> 00:33:20,208
So...
311
00:33:22,210 --> 00:33:23,812
You know, I go in this place,
312
00:33:23,845 --> 00:33:27,283
and I'm still using,
and my dealer's coming.
313
00:33:27,316 --> 00:33:29,117
You know, my face
starts to heal,
314
00:33:29,150 --> 00:33:32,153
and I'm feeling
like I can do it again,
315
00:33:32,187 --> 00:33:38,226
so it's just, you know,
amazing that it took me so long.
316
00:33:38,261 --> 00:33:42,797
I mean, yesterday
was my birthday.
317
00:33:42,831 --> 00:33:44,567
It's been six years.
318
00:33:48,304 --> 00:33:50,473
And, you know,
319
00:33:50,506 --> 00:33:53,342
I want to thank everybody.
320
00:33:53,376 --> 00:33:56,811
Also, something
magical happened,
321
00:33:56,845 --> 00:33:59,214
or at least for me
it was magical,
322
00:33:59,247 --> 00:34:03,985
that last month,
um, a guy came,
323
00:34:04,019 --> 00:34:08,223
he was a tourist
from the States,
324
00:34:08,257 --> 00:34:11,059
and he came to the meeting,
he came here,
325
00:34:11,092 --> 00:34:16,965
and afterwards, we were outside
and he came up to me,
326
00:34:16,998 --> 00:34:21,002
and he said, you know,
327
00:34:21,036 --> 00:34:24,573
"I was... I was your doctor,
I was your counselor
328
00:34:24,607 --> 00:34:28,344
in rehab in Miami, and, uh,
329
00:34:28,377 --> 00:34:32,113
I followed... I followed, uh...
330
00:34:32,147 --> 00:34:35,850
I followed your movies
and I followed you, and I...
331
00:34:35,884 --> 00:34:39,388
I just want to say that, um,
332
00:34:39,422 --> 00:34:42,358
I'm happy to see you alive."
333
00:34:42,391 --> 00:34:47,496
And I said, "Thank you,"
and that was really beautiful.
334
00:34:47,530 --> 00:34:49,398
And thank you all.
335
00:34:57,238 --> 00:34:59,475
Okay, so the time's
beaten us once again.
336
00:34:59,508 --> 00:35:02,210
Folks, we'll finish
with the Serenity Prayer.
337
00:35:08,917 --> 00:35:10,586
- God...
- God...
338
00:35:10,619 --> 00:35:15,324
grant me the serenity to accept
the things I cannot change,
339
00:35:15,358 --> 00:35:17,660
the courage to change
the things I can,
340
00:35:17,693 --> 00:35:20,061
and the wisdom
to know the difference.
341
00:35:20,095 --> 00:35:22,431
Keep coming back,
it works if you work it,
342
00:35:22,465 --> 00:35:24,199
so work it,
you're worth it.
343
00:35:25,267 --> 00:35:26,635
Well done, man. Good job.
344
00:35:26,669 --> 00:35:28,337
Congratulations.
345
00:35:29,938 --> 00:35:31,172
Keep coming back.
346
00:35:31,206 --> 00:35:34,175
- Happy birthday, thanks.
- Happy birthday.
347
00:35:34,209 --> 00:35:35,511
Hey.
348
00:35:37,979 --> 00:35:39,348
Hey.
349
00:35:56,265 --> 00:35:58,099
You're never gonna fall.
350
00:35:58,133 --> 00:36:00,068
Okay, we're here, we're here.
351
00:36:02,705 --> 00:36:04,072
Okay, okay.
352
00:36:04,105 --> 00:36:05,307
Goodnight, moon!
353
00:36:05,341 --> 00:36:07,410
Goodnight, we go to sleep!
354
00:36:13,482 --> 00:36:15,016
Okay.
355
00:38:29,485 --> 00:38:35,257
So you've been making speeches
to the crowd in the piazza.
356
00:38:37,393 --> 00:38:39,662
I only told some people
357
00:38:39,695 --> 00:38:45,166
that the temple
of old laws must fall
358
00:38:45,199 --> 00:38:48,837
and a new temple of truth
should be built.
359
00:38:48,871 --> 00:38:50,573
But don't take me literally.
360
00:38:50,606 --> 00:38:54,577
I'm just trying
to make myself understood.
361
00:38:54,610 --> 00:38:58,647
Why is someone like you
upsetting the people?
362
00:38:58,681 --> 00:39:00,449
Why?
363
00:39:00,482 --> 00:39:03,652
You think you know the truth?
364
00:39:05,186 --> 00:39:06,789
What is truth?
365
00:39:11,260 --> 00:39:13,529
The truth is,
366
00:39:13,562 --> 00:39:14,863
you're in pain.
367
00:39:14,897 --> 00:39:16,365
You have a terrible headache
368
00:39:16,398 --> 00:39:18,867
and you're thinking of suicide.
369
00:39:19,935 --> 00:39:21,403
You can barely look at me.
370
00:39:21,437 --> 00:39:23,839
The way you look at me
disturbs me.
371
00:39:23,872 --> 00:39:26,909
I don't want to be a torturer.
372
00:39:26,942 --> 00:39:31,547
But this feeling will go away.
373
00:39:31,580 --> 00:39:32,815
It will.
374
00:39:34,550 --> 00:39:36,318
It's going away.
375
00:39:40,923 --> 00:39:42,658
This feeling...
376
00:39:44,693 --> 00:39:46,495
...it's going away.
377
00:39:46,528 --> 00:39:50,131
It is, it's going away.
378
00:39:51,533 --> 00:39:53,335
It's going away.
379
00:39:58,273 --> 00:40:01,910
You should go take
a walk in the park.
380
00:40:01,944 --> 00:40:05,347
Totally up to you.
I could come with you.
381
00:40:05,381 --> 00:40:08,249
You seem like
an intelligent man.
382
00:40:10,352 --> 00:40:13,221
The trouble with you is
your mind is closed.
383
00:40:13,255 --> 00:40:15,658
You lack empathy.
384
00:40:15,691 --> 00:40:18,226
You only care for your dog.
385
00:40:47,022 --> 00:40:50,325
Tell me, are you a doctor?
386
00:40:50,359 --> 00:40:52,861
No, I'm not a doctor.
387
00:40:53,830 --> 00:40:56,589
How do you know that
I was thinking to pet my dog?
388
00:40:58,801 --> 00:41:01,737
Because you made a gesture
389
00:41:01,770 --> 00:41:04,673
as if to stroke something,
390
00:41:04,707 --> 00:41:06,508
and your lips...
391
00:41:09,445 --> 00:41:11,513
You are a doctor.
392
00:41:12,347 --> 00:41:14,248
No.
393
00:41:14,283 --> 00:41:16,285
I'm not a doctor.
394
00:42:49,845 --> 00:42:51,847
Ah, okay.
395
00:42:51,880 --> 00:42:53,882
You think it's
too heavy for you?
396
00:42:53,916 --> 00:42:55,984
No, Mama is gonna carry it.
397
00:42:56,018 --> 00:42:58,453
It's too heavy for you
to take, I know.
398
00:43:00,422 --> 00:43:02,591
Okay, now...
399
00:43:04,593 --> 00:43:06,728
Tommaso?
400
00:43:06,762 --> 00:43:09,131
- Yeah?
- We are about to leave.
401
00:43:09,164 --> 00:43:11,900
- You're going?
- Yup.
402
00:43:11,934 --> 00:43:14,903
- Okay.
- We're going to Nonna's.
403
00:43:18,874 --> 00:43:21,009
You sure you don't want to come?
404
00:43:21,043 --> 00:43:22,778
You sure you don't want
to come with us?
405
00:43:22,811 --> 00:43:24,713
No, I got...
I got too much to do.
406
00:43:25,881 --> 00:43:27,583
- You know.
- Come on, you...
407
00:43:27,616 --> 00:43:30,385
Let me call you a cab, okay?
Did you call a cab?
408
00:43:30,419 --> 00:43:32,120
Oh, no, no, no,
I'm gonna go with the metro.
409
00:43:32,154 --> 00:43:33,822
No, no, no, it's too far.
410
00:43:33,856 --> 00:43:35,557
It's too far. Let me call.
411
00:43:35,591 --> 00:43:38,393
- No, no, listen...
- No, it's too far for the baby,
412
00:43:38,427 --> 00:43:39,661
and that's
a freaky neighborhood.
413
00:43:39,695 --> 00:43:41,864
I'm gonna take the metro
and I'm...
414
00:43:41,897 --> 00:43:44,166
- I'm calling a taxi.
- No, please don't call it.
415
00:43:44,199 --> 00:43:45,534
Please.
416
00:43:46,702 --> 00:43:47,669
No, please.
417
00:43:50,806 --> 00:43:52,040
- No.
- No, it's okay.
418
00:43:52,074 --> 00:43:53,575
No, I'm gonna take the metro.
419
00:43:53,609 --> 00:43:55,477
- Are you kidding me?
- Grazie.
420
00:43:55,510 --> 00:43:58,180
No, it's gonna... it's gonna come
in just a little...
421
00:43:58,213 --> 00:44:00,716
- Give me some money, please.
- Oh, okay, yeah.
422
00:44:00,749 --> 00:44:03,719
But I'm not gonna take the cab.
423
00:44:03,752 --> 00:44:06,622
I wanna take the metro.
It's cool.
424
00:44:06,655 --> 00:44:08,123
I'm really cool with that.
425
00:44:08,156 --> 00:44:09,958
- It's coming.
- No, really.
426
00:44:09,992 --> 00:44:13,528
- I'm calling you a taxi.
- Tommaso, don't do this to me.
427
00:44:13,562 --> 00:44:15,331
I'm really good with it.
428
00:44:56,238 --> 00:44:57,773
Wow, okay.
429
00:45:05,647 --> 00:45:06,815
Okay.
430
00:45:07,272 --> 00:45:08,280
Are you tired?
431
00:45:10,336 --> 00:45:12,471
Do we want to finish earlier?
432
00:45:12,921 --> 00:45:13,956
No...
433
00:45:14,256 --> 00:45:17,776
Earlier I had a fight with Nikki
434
00:45:17,850 --> 00:45:23,372
'cause she wanted to get the subway
with the baby
435
00:45:23,436 --> 00:45:25,825
and I don't like that...
436
00:45:26,812 --> 00:45:27,920
It's hard,
437
00:45:29,192 --> 00:45:32,928
maybe it's my problem, but...
438
00:45:33,979 --> 00:45:40,582
Lately I believe
439
00:45:40,670 --> 00:45:44,329
that we should stay more relaxed.
440
00:45:44,766 --> 00:45:47,809
- Me?
- In general, not you.
441
00:45:50,137 --> 00:45:51,677
I'm trying to learn...
442
00:45:56,413 --> 00:46:01,475
I've learned
some breathing exercises.
443
00:46:01,564 --> 00:46:03,659
I can't do that.
444
00:46:04,000 --> 00:46:06,257
- You?
- Tommaso, for me it's impossible.
445
00:46:06,346 --> 00:46:08,512
I can't do the breathing.
446
00:46:08,710 --> 00:46:10,245
Inhale in.
447
00:46:12,180 --> 00:46:16,785
Bring it down to that point
of meeting down here.
448
00:46:20,256 --> 00:46:24,593
Switch, the other nostril,
449
00:46:24,626 --> 00:46:26,995
then bring the energy up.
450
00:46:30,732 --> 00:46:32,301
And then send it up
451
00:46:32,335 --> 00:46:35,003
through the crown of your head
with your diaphragm.
452
00:46:35,037 --> 00:46:37,273
- Okay, we'll breathe together.
- Mm-hmm.
453
00:46:42,844 --> 00:46:44,212
Hold.
454
00:46:51,801 --> 00:46:55,842
You stop the breath here.
455
00:46:56,537 --> 00:46:57,799
It's only...
456
00:47:03,198 --> 00:47:04,232
Okay.
457
00:47:06,735 --> 00:47:09,155
I must immediately find
a meditation teacher,
458
00:47:11,138 --> 00:47:12,781
I must learn.
459
00:47:14,400 --> 00:47:15,741
When am I gonna see you?
460
00:47:18,621 --> 00:47:20,282
Friday, great.
461
00:47:20,564 --> 00:47:22,495
Have a good day.
462
00:48:52,408 --> 00:48:54,709
Nikki? Tommaso.
463
00:48:56,312 --> 00:48:58,813
- Yo.
- Nikki, what...
464
00:48:58,847 --> 00:49:00,283
What? Why are you calling?
465
00:49:00,316 --> 00:49:02,017
I, you know,
I've been calling you
466
00:49:02,050 --> 00:49:03,952
and you didn't pick up,
what the fuck?
467
00:49:03,985 --> 00:49:05,354
I mean, come on.
468
00:49:05,388 --> 00:49:07,756
- What, what?
- I've been trying to reach you,
469
00:49:07,789 --> 00:49:09,824
I've probably called you
50 times.
470
00:49:09,858 --> 00:49:12,160
I just forgot the charger
of my phone, are you serious?
471
00:49:12,194 --> 00:49:14,297
Either you don't pick up
or it goes to voice mail.
472
00:49:14,330 --> 00:49:15,931
What the fuck?
I mean, I worry.
473
00:49:15,964 --> 00:49:17,966
What if something happened
to the baby?
474
00:49:17,999 --> 00:49:20,336
- It's not funny.
- Well, you don't have to worry.
475
00:49:20,369 --> 00:49:23,038
You know, don't act like
a fucking kid, you know?
476
00:49:23,071 --> 00:49:24,440
You got some responsibilities.
477
00:49:24,473 --> 00:49:27,042
I worry about,
you know, I worry...
478
00:49:27,075 --> 00:49:29,978
So please, don't...
don't do that again, okay?
479
00:49:30,011 --> 00:49:31,880
Everything is fine,
don't worry.
480
00:49:31,913 --> 00:49:34,216
- I just forgot the charger.
- Okay, pick up next time.
481
00:49:34,249 --> 00:49:35,884
- Okay, okay.
- Okay.
482
00:49:35,917 --> 00:49:37,420
- Ciao, ciao.
- Ciao.
483
00:49:39,788 --> 00:49:41,066
My wife...
484
00:49:41,719 --> 00:49:47,895
she left the phone charger at home
485
00:49:47,947 --> 00:49:50,520
and it's been impossible
to reach her.
486
00:49:50,616 --> 00:49:53,116
She is with the baby,
487
00:49:53,787 --> 00:49:55,453
I started worrying,
488
00:49:55,546 --> 00:49:58,181
so I had to call my mother-in-law.
489
00:49:58,692 --> 00:50:00,367
You had to call all around.
490
00:50:02,844 --> 00:50:04,212
Okay.
491
00:51:23,326 --> 00:51:31,232
Lately, uh, with the mother
of my baby girl, DeeDee, uh,
492
00:51:31,267 --> 00:51:34,869
I've had some problems
because every time
493
00:51:34,903 --> 00:51:39,240
I try to extend myself to her,
do things for her,
494
00:51:39,275 --> 00:51:41,109
she really pushes me away.
495
00:51:41,142 --> 00:51:43,312
She's, like, got issues.
496
00:51:43,346 --> 00:51:49,552
She... she's younger than me,
she's, uh, 29.
497
00:51:49,585 --> 00:51:52,921
You'd think she would
appreciate my experience.
498
00:51:54,022 --> 00:51:55,957
But, you know, sometimes, she...
499
00:51:55,990 --> 00:51:58,527
she just says, "Oh, let me make
my own decision up.
500
00:51:58,561 --> 00:52:01,229
I don't know who I am
if I don't make a decision."
501
00:52:01,263 --> 00:52:03,031
And I'm telling you,
this goes down
502
00:52:03,064 --> 00:52:06,302
to just very simple things,
you know, like what food to eat
503
00:52:06,335 --> 00:52:09,438
or whether to take a taxi
or the subway,
504
00:52:09,472 --> 00:52:11,307
or these kinds of things,
505
00:52:11,340 --> 00:52:15,210
and it... it really robs me
of, um,
506
00:52:15,243 --> 00:52:18,381
feeling good
like I'm taking care of her.
507
00:52:26,020 --> 00:52:29,991
I do know, you know, she has
a strange relationship...
508
00:52:30,024 --> 00:52:31,660
well, a rough relationship
with her father
509
00:52:31,694 --> 00:52:34,028
because he was an alcoholic
510
00:52:34,062 --> 00:52:36,231
and a bad Russian drunk.
511
00:52:36,265 --> 00:52:39,335
Vodka, you know,
he was abusive with the mother.
512
00:52:39,368 --> 00:52:41,370
Eventually, she kicked her out
513
00:52:41,404 --> 00:52:45,441
and he left when she was
only four years old.
514
00:52:45,474 --> 00:52:50,413
And then, uh, things started
to change in the Eastern Bloc,
515
00:52:50,446 --> 00:52:52,681
and her mother and then
her sister went to Moscow
516
00:52:52,715 --> 00:52:55,251
and she got passed around
with family and...
517
00:52:55,284 --> 00:52:56,652
and other people.
518
00:52:56,685 --> 00:52:58,521
Um, that's where she lived.
519
00:52:58,554 --> 00:53:00,623
So she grew up
very independent.
520
00:53:00,656 --> 00:53:02,691
So she did learn
to be self-reliant,
521
00:53:02,725 --> 00:53:05,428
but at the same time,
she had these unresolved issues
522
00:53:05,461 --> 00:53:08,531
with her father because
she also romanticizes him.
523
00:53:08,564 --> 00:53:10,633
She still wants to talk to him,
524
00:53:10,666 --> 00:53:12,268
but he won't talk to her.
525
00:53:12,301 --> 00:53:14,235
He still is around somewhere,
526
00:53:14,270 --> 00:53:16,472
he's still an alcoholic.
527
00:53:16,505 --> 00:53:18,407
You know.
528
00:53:18,441 --> 00:53:21,377
So that's a little hard to take.
529
00:53:21,410 --> 00:53:25,980
You know, I'm haunted
a little bit by the fact that...
530
00:53:26,014 --> 00:53:28,684
my... my DeeDee
is three years old,
531
00:53:28,717 --> 00:53:35,658
and when... when I wasn't sober,
532
00:53:35,691 --> 00:53:40,496
I had two adopted children,
533
00:53:40,529 --> 00:53:44,300
and I was not...
534
00:53:44,333 --> 00:53:47,570
I left when, uh...
535
00:53:47,603 --> 00:53:52,308
I basically left, I wasn't there
because I wasn't sober,
536
00:53:52,341 --> 00:53:54,477
when my youngest
was four years old,
537
00:53:54,510 --> 00:53:58,781
and I think she, you know,
it really destroyed her,
538
00:53:58,814 --> 00:54:01,650
and I don't want that
to happen again.
539
00:54:01,684 --> 00:54:05,688
I'm sober now, and, uh,
540
00:54:05,721 --> 00:54:08,657
I'm so afraid of it,
but I don't know how to do
541
00:54:08,691 --> 00:54:13,161
because I try to take care,
and every time I do, you know,
542
00:54:13,194 --> 00:54:19,301
it's like there's no recognition
that, um, that...
543
00:54:19,335 --> 00:54:23,405
Even like the idea
that the baby needs a father
544
00:54:23,439 --> 00:54:27,676
is like an oppressive
or, you know...
545
00:54:27,710 --> 00:54:31,680
She doesn't think
that's necessarily true,
546
00:54:31,714 --> 00:54:35,784
and for me, it's essential
because it breaks my heart.
547
00:54:35,818 --> 00:54:39,187
I remember the four-year-old,
right before I left,
548
00:54:39,220 --> 00:54:42,156
she said to me, uh,
549
00:54:42,190 --> 00:54:46,395
"Are you leaving
because I make too much noise?"
550
00:54:46,428 --> 00:54:48,430
And the truth is,
she was the quietest,
551
00:54:48,464 --> 00:54:50,432
sweetest girl in the world,
552
00:54:50,466 --> 00:54:52,735
so that...
that always stays with me,
553
00:54:52,768 --> 00:54:57,506
and I just don't want that
to happen again, and I'm...
554
00:54:57,540 --> 00:54:59,642
I'm happy about
a lot of things.
555
00:54:59,675 --> 00:55:02,678
I'm happy that I'm sober,
but, uh,
556
00:55:02,711 --> 00:55:05,548
this is something
that I'm dealing with right now.
557
00:55:05,581 --> 00:55:07,215
- Thanks, Tommy.
- Thanks, Tommy.
558
00:55:09,117 --> 00:55:10,753
Yeah, I'm Diedre, an addict.
559
00:55:10,786 --> 00:55:12,755
- Hi, Diedre.
- Hi, Diedre.
560
00:55:12,788 --> 00:55:17,259
Uh, related a lot
to what I just heard.
561
00:55:17,293 --> 00:55:20,262
I feel like being
in a partnership
562
00:55:20,296 --> 00:55:24,800
and parenting in a partnership
can be so challenging for me.
563
00:55:24,833 --> 00:55:28,537
Um, I mean, it says
in our literature,
564
00:55:28,571 --> 00:55:32,541
it is, like, impossible for us
565
00:55:32,575 --> 00:55:35,444
to form a true partnership
with another human being.
566
00:55:35,477 --> 00:55:38,581
I mean, that says it all.
567
00:55:38,614 --> 00:55:41,115
Um...
568
00:55:41,149 --> 00:55:42,885
Because, like, I've, you know...
569
00:55:42,918 --> 00:55:45,153
Like, we don't have
relationships,
570
00:55:45,186 --> 00:55:46,689
we take hostages, right?
571
00:55:46,722 --> 00:55:47,690
So like...
572
00:55:49,258 --> 00:55:51,493
Like, we're either,
like, dominating
573
00:55:51,527 --> 00:55:53,295
or we're completely underneath.
574
00:55:53,329 --> 00:55:56,865
Like, there's not
the, just, the equality,
575
00:55:56,899 --> 00:55:58,901
you know, and I...
576
00:55:58,934 --> 00:56:01,235
I always... I always know
577
00:56:01,270 --> 00:56:04,440
my partner's inventory
better than he does.
578
00:56:04,473 --> 00:56:07,710
Like, I always know
exactly what's wrong with him,
579
00:56:07,743 --> 00:56:11,647
what he's gotta do, his past,
his psychology, everything,
580
00:56:11,680 --> 00:56:13,849
you know what I mean,
and the thing is is that
581
00:56:13,882 --> 00:56:16,385
this program teaches me to,
582
00:56:16,418 --> 00:56:18,420
like, stick to my side
of the street.
583
00:56:18,454 --> 00:56:21,790
I have to look
at what my part is,
584
00:56:21,824 --> 00:56:24,593
what I do, and, you know,
585
00:56:24,627 --> 00:56:26,895
as soon as I'm pointing
a finger,
586
00:56:26,929 --> 00:56:30,366
like, it's...
I've gotta look at myself.
587
00:56:30,399 --> 00:56:32,868
So, anyway, I'm super grateful.
588
00:56:32,901 --> 00:56:34,235
I pass.
589
00:56:34,269 --> 00:56:36,505
Thanks, Diedre.
590
00:56:43,379 --> 00:56:44,880
All the best.
591
00:56:44,913 --> 00:56:46,448
Take it easy, guys.
592
00:56:46,482 --> 00:56:48,417
Okay, guys, I'm off,
I'm really hungry.
593
00:56:48,450 --> 00:56:50,452
I have to get something to eat,
so I'll see you later.
594
00:56:50,486 --> 00:56:52,354
All right, all the best.
Ciao. Take it easy.
595
00:56:52,388 --> 00:56:53,589
- Bye.
- All the best. Ciao.
596
00:56:53,622 --> 00:56:54,890
Ciao. I'm giving you two.
597
00:56:54,923 --> 00:56:56,759
Yeah, I should probably
get going too.
598
00:56:56,792 --> 00:56:58,226
Okay, yeah, all right.
599
00:56:58,260 --> 00:56:59,495
- Love you.
- Goodnight.
600
00:56:59,528 --> 00:57:00,929
- Okay, love you, sweetie.
- Bye.
601
00:57:00,963 --> 00:57:02,798
- Great to see you.
- Yeah, same.
602
00:57:02,831 --> 00:57:03,832
- We'll talk later.
- Okay.
603
00:57:03,866 --> 00:57:05,434
- Bye.
- Ciao.
604
00:57:06,602 --> 00:57:08,871
Hmm, all right, I'm...
605
00:57:08,904 --> 00:57:10,606
Yeah, I walk that way.
606
00:57:10,639 --> 00:57:11,774
Oh.
607
00:57:19,247 --> 00:57:20,549
So...
608
00:57:22,518 --> 00:57:24,453
Are you around for a while?
609
00:57:24,486 --> 00:57:25,921
Yeah, I'm here for the summer.
610
00:57:25,954 --> 00:57:27,556
You are,
you're not going anywhere?
611
00:57:27,589 --> 00:57:29,391
- No.
- Yeah?
612
00:57:29,425 --> 00:57:32,327
No, I usually like to travel
when it's not so crowded.
613
00:57:32,361 --> 00:57:33,996
- Smart idea.
- Yeah.
614
00:57:34,029 --> 00:57:37,266
I don't get this Italian thing
of everybody leaving at...
615
00:57:37,299 --> 00:57:40,569
Yeah, exactly, and being,
like, all packed on the beach.
616
00:57:40,602 --> 00:57:41,704
I get it, but...
617
00:57:41,737 --> 00:57:42,938
- I don't get it.
- ...what a drag.
618
00:57:42,971 --> 00:57:44,473
I mean, I get how it happens.
619
00:57:44,506 --> 00:57:46,442
Right, right, right, yeah, yeah.
620
00:57:46,475 --> 00:57:48,477
School holidays, whatever.
621
00:57:48,510 --> 00:57:52,648
No, I have the luxury
of traveling off-season,
622
00:57:52,681 --> 00:57:54,917
so I usually take advantage
of that.
623
00:57:54,950 --> 00:57:56,885
Do you usually go by yourself?
624
00:57:56,919 --> 00:57:58,520
Um, it depends, actually...
625
00:57:58,554 --> 00:58:01,523
- With friends?
- No, I usually go by myself.
626
00:58:01,557 --> 00:58:03,459
You were with that guy
for a little while.
627
00:58:03,492 --> 00:58:05,327
- Are you still with him?
- Mmm...
628
00:58:05,360 --> 00:58:06,462
No, no?
629
00:58:08,597 --> 00:58:10,332
Um... no.
630
00:58:10,365 --> 00:58:11,533
No, that's finished.
631
00:58:11,567 --> 00:58:12,935
How long ago was that?
632
00:58:12,968 --> 00:58:14,937
Well, it was on and off
for like six years,
633
00:58:14,970 --> 00:58:18,373
but finally finished like
about a year and a half ago.
634
00:58:18,407 --> 00:58:20,476
I'll... I'll walk you.
635
00:58:20,509 --> 00:58:21,710
Okay.
636
00:58:21,744 --> 00:58:23,345
- Okay?
- Yeah.
637
00:58:23,378 --> 00:58:24,546
Thanks.
638
00:58:25,748 --> 00:58:27,316
How long ago?
639
00:58:27,349 --> 00:58:29,618
- About a year and a half ago.
- Oh, okay.
640
00:58:32,955 --> 00:58:36,024
And how has that been,
like, being alone again?
641
00:58:36,058 --> 00:58:37,392
Good?
642
00:58:37,426 --> 00:58:38,861
Hmm, yes.
643
00:58:38,894 --> 00:58:41,396
- Do you like being alone?
- Actually, yes.
644
00:58:41,430 --> 00:58:42,698
Yeah?
645
00:58:42,731 --> 00:58:45,834
At first it was, you know...
646
00:58:45,868 --> 00:58:49,037
Well, at first
I was just bummed out
647
00:58:49,071 --> 00:58:51,073
because we tried
on and off for so long,
648
00:58:51,106 --> 00:58:55,077
but now I'm pretty happily
single, you know.
649
00:58:55,110 --> 00:58:57,846
In fact, I was just talking
to a friend of mine
650
00:58:57,880 --> 00:59:00,382
about how much
I love sleeping alone.
651
00:59:00,415 --> 00:59:02,618
It's like heaven.
652
00:59:02,651 --> 00:59:05,487
- A whole bed to myself.
- Oh, God!
653
00:59:05,521 --> 00:59:08,056
Not me, I think I've
always been with someone.
654
00:59:08,090 --> 00:59:10,592
- Oh, really?
- Yeah, yeah.
655
00:59:10,626 --> 00:59:13,796
But, I don't know, I never had
the opportunity to sleep alone,
656
00:59:13,829 --> 00:59:18,700
I think, so this is my...
my first big run of...
657
00:59:18,734 --> 00:59:20,636
- Enjoying yourself.
- ...hogging the bed.
658
00:59:22,571 --> 00:59:25,741
You just need a big bed
so you have some choices.
659
00:59:27,042 --> 00:59:28,610
You know.
660
00:59:28,644 --> 00:59:31,346
- Right?
- Uh, yeah.
661
00:59:31,380 --> 00:59:33,482
That's what I like.
I like a nice, big bed.
662
00:59:33,515 --> 00:59:35,684
We're gonna need a bigger bed,
it's like...
663
00:59:39,888 --> 00:59:41,857
Hmm.
664
00:59:41,890 --> 00:59:43,992
- Well...
- Okay, um...
665
00:59:44,026 --> 00:59:46,728
- This is me.
- Yeah, I know, I know.
666
00:59:46,762 --> 00:59:48,664
Okay, well,
have a good night, huh?
667
00:59:48,697 --> 00:59:50,632
Thank you. You too.
668
00:59:50,666 --> 00:59:52,868
Thanks for walking me home,
and, um,
669
00:59:52,901 --> 00:59:55,504
happy six years.
670
00:59:55,537 --> 00:59:56,805
- Thank you.
- That's awesome.
671
00:59:56,839 --> 00:59:58,440
- Thank you.
- Yeah, okay.
672
00:59:58,473 --> 01:00:00,075
Okay.
673
01:00:00,108 --> 01:00:03,645
- Make sure you get in.
- Thank you.
674
01:00:04,880 --> 01:00:06,682
- Okay, yeah, goodnight.
- Goodnight.
675
01:00:06,715 --> 01:00:08,951
- Sleep well.
- You too. Thanks.
676
01:01:45,681 --> 01:01:46,982
Oh!
677
01:01:51,553 --> 01:01:53,121
Hey!
678
01:01:58,294 --> 01:01:59,262
Hey!
679
01:02:00,662 --> 01:02:01,863
Hey!
680
01:02:01,897 --> 01:02:03,865
- How are you?
- Hey.
681
01:02:03,899 --> 01:02:07,035
Good? Yeah? Was it fun?
682
01:02:07,069 --> 01:02:09,738
Yeah, it's... it's fun.
683
01:02:09,771 --> 01:02:11,606
I missed you guys.
684
01:02:13,075 --> 01:02:15,911
- Okay?
- Yes.
685
01:02:17,679 --> 01:02:21,116
We had a great time.
686
01:02:21,149 --> 01:02:24,052
- Umbrella?
- Yeah, take the umbrella.
687
01:02:24,086 --> 01:02:27,689
Take the other shoe.
Okay, honey.
688
01:02:27,723 --> 01:02:29,124
Okay.
689
01:02:30,592 --> 01:02:32,194
But it was good?
690
01:02:32,227 --> 01:02:35,230
You know, it's always good,
you know.
691
01:02:35,264 --> 01:02:38,700
She has this big garden,
big things,
692
01:02:38,734 --> 01:02:43,138
and she plays with it,
and it's really nice.
693
01:02:43,171 --> 01:02:44,840
I missed you, huh?
694
01:02:49,345 --> 01:02:50,812
Really?
695
01:02:50,846 --> 01:02:52,748
Yeah.
696
01:02:52,781 --> 01:02:56,184
- Really?
- Yeah, yeah!
697
01:02:56,218 --> 01:02:58,053
Well, I don't believe it.
698
01:02:58,086 --> 01:02:59,688
- You don't?
- No.
699
01:02:59,721 --> 01:03:02,190
- Okay.
- You look too good to miss me.
700
01:03:04,192 --> 01:03:05,627
Okay?
701
01:03:06,928 --> 01:03:09,031
So, what's going on here?
702
01:03:09,064 --> 01:03:10,599
I've just been working.
703
01:03:10,632 --> 01:03:12,834
I've just been working,
you know?
704
01:03:12,868 --> 01:03:14,770
I'm trying to do
this crazy thing
705
01:03:14,803 --> 01:03:17,773
about these, um,
scenes with the bear.
706
01:03:17,806 --> 01:03:19,941
And?
707
01:03:19,975 --> 01:03:22,311
I don't know, 'cause you
don't want it to be, like,
708
01:03:22,345 --> 01:03:24,246
you know, like a big
special effects thing,
709
01:03:24,280 --> 01:03:27,749
but I want the scariness
of the bear in there, so...
710
01:03:31,987 --> 01:03:33,722
Clint puts down bar rag
711
01:03:33,755 --> 01:03:36,292
and comes around bar
to get a closer look.
712
01:03:36,325 --> 01:03:39,061
Numbers stop,
and again, it's a loss.
713
01:03:39,094 --> 01:03:41,330
Woodsman turns to Clint,
only this time,
714
01:03:41,364 --> 01:03:45,133
it is the head of a bear
in the clothes of the woodsman.
715
01:03:45,167 --> 01:03:47,336
Clint,
with no Mitchell in sight,
716
01:03:47,370 --> 01:03:51,239
is in bloody, violent, and
extended fight for his life.
717
01:03:52,741 --> 01:03:54,910
Dogs outside going wild.
718
01:05:01,243 --> 01:05:03,778
- You're eating?
- Yes.
719
01:05:03,812 --> 01:05:06,047
Why didn't you call me?
720
01:05:06,081 --> 01:05:08,950
I thought...
I thought you already ate.
721
01:05:08,984 --> 01:05:10,152
No.
722
01:05:10,185 --> 01:05:11,820
- No?
- No.
723
01:05:11,853 --> 01:05:13,922
- Why?
- Why didn't you call me?
724
01:05:13,955 --> 01:05:16,224
But why you didn't eat yet?
725
01:05:16,259 --> 01:05:19,895
You know, it's fucking...
it's thoughtless.
726
01:05:19,928 --> 01:05:22,398
Come on, I waited...
you know, I...
727
01:05:22,431 --> 01:05:25,033
I missed...
I sat around all yesterday,
728
01:05:25,066 --> 01:05:27,403
and I made my own dinner,
then you make food,
729
01:05:27,436 --> 01:05:29,070
you don't even call me.
730
01:05:29,104 --> 01:05:30,872
I've been waiting to have lunch.
731
01:05:30,906 --> 01:05:32,874
Why you...
why you gotta wait for me?
732
01:05:32,908 --> 01:05:34,277
Why you gotta wait for me?
733
01:05:34,310 --> 01:05:36,111
You can cook, you are an adult.
734
01:05:36,144 --> 01:05:38,813
I know, okay, okay,
I can cook and I will cook.
735
01:05:38,847 --> 01:05:40,283
I'll cook my own stuff.
736
01:05:40,316 --> 01:05:44,219
Jesus Christ, do you know,
I waited for you.
737
01:05:44,253 --> 01:05:47,889
- You know, I wait for you...
- No, no, come on...
738
01:05:47,923 --> 01:05:50,992
No, it just bugs me
because it's inconsiderate.
739
01:05:51,026 --> 01:05:53,828
I like to eat
with you and the baby.
740
01:05:53,862 --> 01:05:55,096
Oh, come on.
741
01:05:55,130 --> 01:05:58,099
What do you mean,
"Oh, come on"?
742
01:05:58,133 --> 01:05:59,302
What do you mean?
743
01:06:00,403 --> 01:06:01,903
Yeah, laugh, you know,
744
01:06:01,937 --> 01:06:03,838
you laugh when you know
you're full of shit.
745
01:06:03,872 --> 01:06:06,509
- That's what happens.
- Can I have at least the freedom
746
01:06:06,542 --> 01:06:10,346
to eat when I want
and with who I want
747
01:06:10,379 --> 01:06:13,316
and without busting my balls
and blah-blah-blah?
748
01:06:13,349 --> 01:06:16,319
Okay, I don't mean
to bust your balls, believe me.
749
01:06:16,352 --> 01:06:19,788
I just try to take care, it's
all a little silly, you know?
750
01:06:19,821 --> 01:06:22,791
You talk a lot of shit,
you know, you talk a lot of...
751
01:06:24,025 --> 01:06:26,429
...hippie shit.
752
01:06:26,462 --> 01:06:29,030
- Oh my God.
- Why don't you make it for me?
753
01:06:29,064 --> 01:06:31,199
I mean, I'm trying to work.
754
01:06:31,233 --> 01:06:32,834
- Really?
- I make it for you.
755
01:06:32,867 --> 01:06:35,136
It's just... it's just
common consideration.
756
01:06:35,170 --> 01:06:36,938
Really, I thought
you already had.
757
01:06:36,972 --> 01:06:40,309
Being a family,
being a couple, you know,
758
01:06:40,343 --> 01:06:42,378
loving someone
is being present.
759
01:06:42,411 --> 01:06:44,212
It's about...
it's about attention,
760
01:06:44,246 --> 01:06:48,016
it's about... it's about,
you know, taking care.
761
01:06:48,049 --> 01:06:50,118
I'm trying to do my thing.
762
01:06:51,420 --> 01:06:53,154
- And...
- What is your thing?
763
01:06:53,188 --> 01:06:55,156
- My thing?
- Yeah, what is your thing?
764
01:06:56,592 --> 01:06:58,561
"It's your thing,
do what you wanna do,
765
01:06:58,594 --> 01:07:01,863
I can't tell you
who to sock it to."
766
01:07:01,896 --> 01:07:05,934
Oh, come on.
To do what I want, when I want,
767
01:07:05,967 --> 01:07:10,539
everything that I really want,
without explaining to somebody...
768
01:07:10,573 --> 01:07:13,342
So I have two children now?
769
01:08:37,926 --> 01:08:39,462
Start your story.
770
01:08:43,769 --> 01:08:45,965
Once I met a boy.
771
01:08:47,864 --> 01:08:49,713
I liked his eyes.
772
01:08:52,887 --> 01:08:55,792
His eyes and his mouth.
773
01:08:58,091 --> 01:09:01,554
I liked his mouth, it was big.
774
01:09:02,346 --> 01:09:03,465
Beautiful.
775
01:09:05,911 --> 01:09:09,960
I remember he started
hugging and kissing me.
776
01:09:12,232 --> 01:09:13,855
I fell in love immediately.
777
01:09:20,454 --> 01:09:24,667
I liked his eyes, his smell...
778
01:10:52,227 --> 01:10:54,563
Okay? Don't worry.
779
01:10:57,600 --> 01:10:58,601
Mama?
780
01:11:03,772 --> 01:11:05,274
Mama, Mama?
781
01:11:05,307 --> 01:11:07,510
You know what,
I'm gonna go down there.
782
01:11:07,543 --> 01:11:10,479
- Okay?
- It's okay, it's okay.
783
01:11:10,513 --> 01:11:13,248
Everything gonna be okay.
784
01:11:25,584 --> 01:11:29,674
Shut up!
You're making us crazy.
785
01:11:33,533 --> 01:11:36,446
Somebody call the police!
786
01:11:39,744 --> 01:11:42,665
If you don't stop,
I'll come and punch you.
787
01:11:48,182 --> 01:11:50,452
You know,
he's freaking out the baby.
788
01:11:50,486 --> 01:11:52,588
I know, I know, I know, I know.
789
01:11:52,621 --> 01:11:54,590
Just... yeah, but just be careful.
790
01:11:54,623 --> 01:11:56,358
- Listen, be careful.
- Yeah, yeah, I know.
791
01:11:56,392 --> 01:11:58,527
You know, with these guys,
you never know.
792
01:12:26,722 --> 01:12:27,723
Yo!
793
01:12:30,744 --> 01:12:31,966
Stop it!
794
01:12:37,990 --> 01:12:40,762
You are scaring my baby!
795
01:12:42,284 --> 01:12:44,403
Stop it! Shut up!
796
01:12:44,740 --> 01:12:47,476
- ...motherfucker.
- Get outta here!
797
01:12:47,509 --> 01:12:50,779
- You speak English?
- I don't speak English but I...
798
01:12:52,414 --> 01:12:54,783
Get the fuck outta here,
get the fuck outta here.
799
01:12:54,817 --> 01:12:56,619
Get outta here!
800
01:12:57,720 --> 01:12:59,288
Fucking bloody...
801
01:12:59,321 --> 01:13:03,224
Get your shit outta here,
come on, go!
802
01:13:04,827 --> 01:13:06,562
- ...I'll destroy you.
- Yeah, okay, okay, okay.
803
01:13:06,595 --> 01:13:09,732
Yeah, you're gonna do it?
Get outta here, get outta here.
804
01:13:09,765 --> 01:13:11,433
Just get out.
805
01:13:11,467 --> 01:13:13,268
Beat it, beat it.
806
01:13:13,302 --> 01:13:15,437
Come on, be on your way.
807
01:13:15,471 --> 01:13:18,307
Take your food with you. Go.
808
01:13:18,340 --> 01:13:20,174
Oh, my baby, she can't sleep,
809
01:13:20,208 --> 01:13:21,910
you're scaring the shit
out of her.
810
01:13:21,944 --> 01:13:23,879
Where is it?
811
01:13:23,912 --> 01:13:25,714
Your baby is sleeping?
812
01:13:25,748 --> 01:13:27,650
Upstairs, upstairs.
813
01:13:27,683 --> 01:13:29,618
So I'm making bothering
with you?
814
01:13:29,652 --> 01:13:31,453
You're bothering me.
815
01:13:31,487 --> 01:13:34,256
- It's true?
- Yeah, it's true, it's true.
816
01:13:34,289 --> 01:13:35,724
Keeping...
817
01:13:35,758 --> 01:13:37,326
- Yeah.
- No anything.
818
01:13:37,359 --> 01:13:38,427
Okay.
819
01:13:39,728 --> 01:13:41,563
We maybe compromises.
820
01:13:41,597 --> 01:13:45,401
Okay, you can sit down,
but no more, okay?
821
01:13:45,434 --> 01:13:46,702
Yeah.
822
01:13:46,735 --> 01:13:48,971
I don't want to bother you.
823
01:13:49,004 --> 01:13:50,606
Good.
824
01:13:50,639 --> 01:13:53,241
You're a nice person,
give me some coins?
825
01:13:54,576 --> 01:13:56,478
Yeah, I can give you some coins.
826
01:13:57,980 --> 01:14:00,816
Where you come from?
827
01:14:00,849 --> 01:14:02,518
The States.
828
01:14:02,551 --> 01:14:04,787
Which part of States?
829
01:14:04,820 --> 01:14:06,255
New York.
830
01:14:06,288 --> 01:14:07,923
- New York.
- How about you?
831
01:14:07,956 --> 01:14:12,828
All of my friends live
in here, here, just near here.
832
01:14:12,861 --> 01:14:14,363
They came from New York.
833
01:14:14,396 --> 01:14:16,398
Where are you from?
834
01:14:16,432 --> 01:14:18,467
- Pakistan.
- Pakistan?
835
01:14:18,500 --> 01:14:19,768
You know where it is?
836
01:14:19,802 --> 01:14:21,403
I've heard of it.
837
01:14:24,573 --> 01:14:26,408
They are all bullshit.
838
01:14:27,943 --> 01:14:29,578
I know, I know, I know.
839
01:14:39,755 --> 01:14:41,724
Okay, okay, okay.
840
01:14:43,592 --> 01:14:45,260
Fuckin' hell.
841
01:14:50,432 --> 01:14:53,769
That's... that stuff's poison,
you know that.
842
01:14:55,337 --> 01:14:56,972
- Enjoy yourself.
- Okay.
843
01:14:57,005 --> 01:14:59,608
- Have a good night.
- Yes, to you.
844
01:15:00,576 --> 01:15:02,344
See you the next time.
845
01:15:02,377 --> 01:15:04,245
Okay, good luck.
846
01:15:06,048 --> 01:15:07,349
Okay.
847
01:15:11,553 --> 01:15:12,755
Okay.
848
01:15:15,758 --> 01:15:16,992
Goodnight.
849
01:15:20,095 --> 01:15:21,597
Just go.
850
01:15:21,630 --> 01:15:23,298
You're good.
851
01:18:06,862 --> 01:18:08,196
DeeDee!
852
01:19:22,258 --> 01:19:26,580
Anybody have a story?
Raise your hand if you do.
853
01:19:28,810 --> 01:19:30,145
Okay.
854
01:19:30,854 --> 01:19:34,951
I left home when I was 19
855
01:19:35,688 --> 01:19:39,640
and I moved abroad.
856
01:19:40,682 --> 01:19:43,650
- Where?
- Dubai, in the Emirates.
857
01:19:44,338 --> 01:19:47,374
Good, do it again.
858
01:19:48,146 --> 01:19:50,893
Do the same movements,
859
01:19:50,981 --> 01:19:54,435
but this time tell the whole story.
860
01:19:55,424 --> 01:19:57,357
Now I'm going, I don't care where,
861
01:19:57,403 --> 01:20:02,409
the important thing is that
I go far from my family.
862
01:20:03,422 --> 01:20:07,170
I will choose the first place
that wants me
863
01:20:07,210 --> 01:20:08,194
and I'll go there.
864
01:20:09,595 --> 01:20:12,373
I'm here, I'm here in Dubai.
865
01:20:15,153 --> 01:20:18,965
I really wanted to come here
because I thought
866
01:20:20,028 --> 01:20:23,621
I could find something here
that I couldn't find there.
867
01:20:24,045 --> 01:20:26,029
But here there's nothing at all.
868
01:20:27,235 --> 01:20:29,071
So where is he now?
869
01:20:30,906 --> 01:20:33,108
I don't know.
870
01:20:33,141 --> 01:20:36,078
You don't...
but he just wrote you, right?
871
01:20:38,780 --> 01:20:40,982
He sent you an email.
872
01:20:41,016 --> 01:20:45,787
Yeah, he sent me some emails
during those three years...
873
01:20:45,821 --> 01:20:49,925
Only... ahh, see, I thought
he just sent you recently.
874
01:20:49,958 --> 01:20:52,094
- No.
- No? Oh.
875
01:20:52,127 --> 01:20:57,132
No, like, a few emails
in three years...
876
01:20:57,165 --> 01:21:00,735
- Oh, that's terrible.
- ...are not enough for a father.
877
01:21:03,105 --> 01:21:06,241
So you're, you know,
so you basically cut him off,
878
01:21:06,275 --> 01:21:07,709
you're angry because he...
879
01:21:07,742 --> 01:21:10,112
- Of course I am.
- Yeah.
880
01:21:10,145 --> 01:21:13,282
He... he was everything for me.
881
01:21:13,316 --> 01:21:16,017
So he disappointed you.
882
01:21:16,051 --> 01:21:18,920
He...
883
01:21:18,954 --> 01:21:24,293
He was teaching me
to believe in some values.
884
01:21:24,327 --> 01:21:26,061
Mm-hmm.
885
01:21:26,094 --> 01:21:30,132
And he showed me
that those values
886
01:21:30,165 --> 01:21:31,400
don't exist.
887
01:21:31,434 --> 01:21:34,669
- Okay.
- He destroyed my world.
888
01:21:34,703 --> 01:21:39,908
He destroyed my hope,
everything.
889
01:21:39,941 --> 01:21:41,143
Right.
890
01:21:41,176 --> 01:21:42,144
So...
891
01:21:44,079 --> 01:21:47,749
How can it be possible,
like, for a father?
892
01:21:49,851 --> 01:21:51,320
I don't know.
893
01:21:51,354 --> 01:21:54,089
I mean, we are...
894
01:21:54,122 --> 01:21:55,857
He made me.
895
01:21:57,493 --> 01:22:00,429
He's supposed to love me,
to stay with me,
896
01:22:00,463 --> 01:22:03,698
to take care of me,
but he doesn't.
897
01:22:03,732 --> 01:22:07,035
He's completely focused
on other stupid stuff.
898
01:22:07,068 --> 01:22:08,770
Right.
899
01:22:10,972 --> 01:22:13,942
I don't...
I don't know what to say.
900
01:22:13,975 --> 01:22:16,379
- Anyway...
- I mean... yeah.
901
01:22:16,412 --> 01:22:18,347
Let's speak
about something more.
902
01:22:18,381 --> 01:22:20,115
Okay, something else.
903
01:22:20,148 --> 01:22:22,451
What about your baby?
904
01:22:22,485 --> 01:22:25,854
She's good, I mean, you know,
every day is a little miracle.
905
01:22:25,887 --> 01:22:30,091
She learns lots of stuff,
she's talking a lot more.
906
01:22:30,125 --> 01:22:33,028
Um, you know,
I love taking her to the park.
907
01:22:33,061 --> 01:22:37,165
I've got some stuff
with her mother, but, um,
908
01:22:37,199 --> 01:22:38,334
you know about that.
909
01:22:40,202 --> 01:22:43,306
So, it's hard, you know?
910
01:22:43,339 --> 01:22:46,908
But I'm dealing with it,
and, um, you know,
911
01:22:46,942 --> 01:22:49,512
making work and...
912
01:22:49,545 --> 01:22:51,380
I get to talk to you.
913
01:22:53,815 --> 01:22:55,251
Class was good, huh?
914
01:22:55,284 --> 01:22:58,019
Yeah, today was amazing.
915
01:22:58,053 --> 01:23:02,090
Yeah, I love having you
in class.
916
01:23:02,123 --> 01:23:03,758
- Thanks.
- No, it's nice,
917
01:23:03,792 --> 01:23:06,161
and I'm always happy to see you.
918
01:23:07,530 --> 01:23:10,999
Okay, so, maybe I should go.
919
01:23:11,032 --> 01:23:13,868
Yeah, what are you up to?
920
01:23:13,902 --> 01:23:15,837
I don't know.
921
01:23:15,870 --> 01:23:17,406
You gotta go?
922
01:23:17,440 --> 01:23:19,040
- Maybe, yeah.
- Yeah, okay.
923
01:23:19,074 --> 01:23:21,243
Okay, all right, ciao.
924
01:24:03,952 --> 01:24:05,454
Okay, I gotta go.
925
01:24:06,322 --> 01:24:07,822
Okay.
926
01:26:28,196 --> 01:26:30,332
When you touch
the fundamental nature
927
01:26:30,366 --> 01:26:33,736
of the ultimate reality
of any phenomenon whatsoever,
928
01:26:33,769 --> 01:26:35,638
there is pleasure.
929
01:26:35,671 --> 01:26:38,307
Everything that exists
is capable
930
01:26:38,340 --> 01:26:41,577
of eliciting pleasure
in your mind,
931
01:26:41,610 --> 01:26:43,211
but you are narrow.
932
01:26:43,244 --> 01:26:45,246
Your mind has
neurotic obsessions
933
01:26:45,281 --> 01:26:49,685
such as, "I only like things
that are purple."
934
01:26:49,718 --> 01:26:53,589
For you, only purple things
are beautiful.
935
01:26:53,622 --> 01:26:56,024
This sort of neurotic,
dualistic,
936
01:26:56,057 --> 01:26:59,562
unrealistic way of thinking
only gets you into trouble,
937
01:26:59,595 --> 01:27:02,465
but we do it all the time,
don't we?
938
01:27:26,822 --> 01:27:28,491
Hey!
939
01:27:33,329 --> 01:27:35,163
What's happening?
940
01:27:35,196 --> 01:27:37,232
How come you came here?
941
01:27:37,266 --> 01:27:39,268
What's with this surprise?
942
01:27:39,301 --> 01:27:40,603
What is this surprise?
943
01:27:46,275 --> 01:27:47,543
Okay, so...
944
01:28:01,790 --> 01:28:03,325
Hey!
945
01:28:06,829 --> 01:28:08,129
Ciao!
946
01:28:09,598 --> 01:28:10,833
Hey, Lisa.
947
01:28:10,866 --> 01:28:12,066
Oh!
948
01:28:13,335 --> 01:28:14,537
Hey!
949
01:28:15,504 --> 01:28:17,171
Oh!
950
01:28:22,176 --> 01:28:24,613
They're having fun,
they're playing.
951
01:28:24,647 --> 01:28:28,584
I've been all over the park
running after them.
952
01:28:45,601 --> 01:28:48,437
My name's Danny,
and I'm an alcoholic.
953
01:28:48,470 --> 01:28:50,104
- Hi, Danny.
- Hi, Danny.
954
01:28:50,138 --> 01:28:52,408
I've enjoyed the meeting,
you know,
955
01:28:52,441 --> 01:28:55,477
and I'm listening
to the stories around the room
956
01:28:55,511 --> 01:28:58,647
and just thinking about,
you know,
957
01:28:58,681 --> 01:29:02,585
often when I come here,
I'm afraid, you know.
958
01:29:02,618 --> 01:29:04,620
The thing that's
in my mind most
959
01:29:04,653 --> 01:29:06,255
is feeling sorry for myself
960
01:29:06,288 --> 01:29:08,490
because everybody else
is going to the pub,
961
01:29:08,524 --> 01:29:12,695
and I have to fucking come here
and listen to people talking
962
01:29:12,728 --> 01:29:15,631
and, you know,
963
01:29:15,664 --> 01:29:17,633
and I think about
the way it was,
964
01:29:17,666 --> 01:29:19,768
like, going to the pub
with a pint in the hand,
965
01:29:19,802 --> 01:29:22,438
cracking the jokes,
and all the rest of it.
966
01:29:22,471 --> 01:29:25,341
So I come here and I'm feeling
sorry for myself,
967
01:29:25,374 --> 01:29:28,344
but I'm quickly reminded
of, you know,
968
01:29:28,377 --> 01:29:32,414
how good it is to be sober
and, you know,
969
01:29:32,448 --> 01:29:34,717
I'm grateful because this week,
as you all know,
970
01:29:34,750 --> 01:29:38,787
Noemi has been going through,
you know, she has cancer,
971
01:29:38,821 --> 01:29:41,757
and, um,
she did treatment already
972
01:29:41,790 --> 01:29:44,293
and things have been going
really well,
973
01:29:44,326 --> 01:29:49,230
but, um, you know, we're going
for a routine test this week,
974
01:29:49,264 --> 01:29:52,568
and unfortunately,
the fucking thing's come back,
975
01:29:52,601 --> 01:29:56,338
you know, and it's not
life-threatening, you know,
976
01:29:56,372 --> 01:29:59,942
by no means are we looking
at death or anything like that,
977
01:29:59,975 --> 01:30:04,446
but when I come here
and I'm feeling sorry for myself
978
01:30:04,480 --> 01:30:07,716
because I have to sit here
and listen to people,
979
01:30:07,750 --> 01:30:09,585
and then I think
about the reality
980
01:30:09,618 --> 01:30:13,221
that, you know,
my future wife is facing,
981
01:30:13,255 --> 01:30:17,559
it brings in the sharp focus,
the, you know,
982
01:30:17,593 --> 01:30:19,628
the selfish,
self-centered nature
983
01:30:19,662 --> 01:30:21,764
of what it is
that I suffer from,
984
01:30:21,797 --> 01:30:29,338
and it reminds me of how lucky
I am to be here, you know.
985
01:30:29,371 --> 01:30:30,839
That's all I've got
for this evening.
986
01:30:30,873 --> 01:30:31,974
Thanks very much.
987
01:30:32,007 --> 01:30:34,910
- Thanks, Danny.
- Thanks, Danny.
988
01:30:34,943 --> 01:30:36,945
My name is Souten,
I'm an alcoholic.
989
01:30:36,979 --> 01:30:38,514
- Hi, Souten.
- Hi, Souten.
990
01:30:38,547 --> 01:30:40,516
When I was about 19 years old,
991
01:30:40,549 --> 01:30:44,319
I was already 13 years drinking
and doing drugs.
992
01:30:44,353 --> 01:30:48,290
I rock bottom big time.
993
01:30:48,323 --> 01:30:50,893
I came in AA,
somebody helped me,
994
01:30:50,926 --> 01:30:53,796
and I stayed in the program
for eight years,
995
01:30:53,829 --> 01:30:58,734
and then it stopped,
and I picked up one drink,
996
01:30:58,767 --> 01:31:02,705
and I was fucked again
for another 18 years.
997
01:31:02,738 --> 01:31:04,840
Four years ago,
I rock bottom
998
01:31:04,873 --> 01:31:07,643
a little different than
the first time I rock bottom.
999
01:31:07,676 --> 01:31:09,445
I was in my house,
1000
01:31:09,478 --> 01:31:12,581
and there were all people
I don't know in my house.
1001
01:31:12,614 --> 01:31:16,952
Everywhere were bottles
with booze on the floors,
1002
01:31:16,985 --> 01:31:19,755
and cocaine on the table,
1003
01:31:19,788 --> 01:31:23,492
and women in my bed
who I don't know.
1004
01:31:23,525 --> 01:31:25,661
And the worst thing is
that my wife,
1005
01:31:25,694 --> 01:31:31,266
she was in the airplane
coming from Amsterdam back home,
1006
01:31:31,300 --> 01:31:33,936
and I kick everybody
out of my house,
1007
01:31:33,969 --> 01:31:37,473
I clean my house,
and when I put the last bottle
1008
01:31:37,506 --> 01:31:40,576
in the busta nero,
in the trash bag,
1009
01:31:40,609 --> 01:31:45,280
the taxi came up with my wife,
and I run to the bathroom,
1010
01:31:45,314 --> 01:31:48,817
and I had this mirror moment,
I looked in the mirror
1011
01:31:48,851 --> 01:31:54,723
after 18 years and I saw myself
totally white with the red eyes.
1012
01:31:54,757 --> 01:31:56,792
And I thought,
"Fuck, man, that's not you,
1013
01:31:56,825 --> 01:31:59,895
that's the devil,"
and there it hit me,
1014
01:31:59,928 --> 01:32:03,465
the little... something
told me in my ears,
1015
01:32:03,499 --> 01:32:07,536
"You have to do something
about your life, man."
1016
01:32:07,569 --> 01:32:09,304
And I did.
1017
01:32:09,338 --> 01:32:12,441
So I did a year full,
every day a meeting.
1018
01:32:12,474 --> 01:32:16,879
That was my first sober year,
and it was a miracle.
1019
01:32:16,912 --> 01:32:18,947
And then miracles
started happening.
1020
01:32:18,981 --> 01:32:20,382
- Hey!
- Can you give me a lift?
1021
01:32:20,415 --> 01:32:21,717
Yeah, come on.
1022
01:32:21,750 --> 01:32:22,951
All right, I'll see ya
later on then.
1023
01:32:22,985 --> 01:32:25,420
Good luck, all the best,
take it easy.
1024
01:32:25,454 --> 01:32:30,425
I just want to be free,
free from all the bullshit.
1025
01:32:33,896 --> 01:32:35,564
I must... I must be careful.
1026
01:32:35,597 --> 01:32:38,100
Yeah, okay.
No, I'll walk you down.
1027
01:32:38,133 --> 01:32:40,402
Oh, no, I'm coming with you.
1028
01:32:40,435 --> 01:32:42,437
You're coming...
Oh, you're coming.
1029
01:32:42,471 --> 01:32:44,506
Watch your step.
1030
01:32:47,843 --> 01:32:49,411
Okay.
1031
01:32:57,719 --> 01:33:01,890
It's just, uh, becoming more
and more a problem, you know,
1032
01:33:01,924 --> 01:33:06,061
and I know it, uh,
has to do with the baby
1033
01:33:06,094 --> 01:33:08,530
sleeping with us,
but I mean, uh...
1034
01:33:08,564 --> 01:33:10,465
But the baby has its own bed,
doesn't it?
1035
01:33:10,499 --> 01:33:11,600
No, no.
1036
01:33:11,633 --> 01:33:13,669
No, she fucking sleeps with us.
1037
01:33:13,702 --> 01:33:15,404
So she's using the bed?
1038
01:33:15,437 --> 01:33:17,039
Well, I mean, you know,
1039
01:33:17,072 --> 01:33:20,642
ever since... ever since that baby
was born, everything changed.
1040
01:33:20,676 --> 01:33:24,780
You know, I don't know,
we just don't, uh...
1041
01:33:24,813 --> 01:33:28,150
Yeah, it changed like overnight.
1042
01:33:28,183 --> 01:33:31,453
What I think is happening here,
I think,
1043
01:33:31,486 --> 01:33:37,426
is that she is living out
a childhood experience.
1044
01:33:37,459 --> 01:33:41,029
The scenes which are occurring
now between you and her,
1045
01:33:41,063 --> 01:33:43,599
I would think that
they probably reflect
1046
01:33:43,632 --> 01:33:46,668
what was happening in the house
when she was a child,
1047
01:33:46,702 --> 01:33:48,704
and she's provoking that.
1048
01:33:48,737 --> 01:33:54,409
She has created this white...
white knight in shining armor
1049
01:33:54,443 --> 01:33:57,679
that she idolizes,
but in a sense,
1050
01:33:57,713 --> 01:34:00,015
you can't... you should not
take away that figure
1051
01:34:00,048 --> 01:34:01,917
because that figure,
for the moment,
1052
01:34:01,950 --> 01:34:03,652
is holding her together.
1053
01:34:07,589 --> 01:34:10,959
The big problem is, I have
such fucking rage about this
1054
01:34:10,993 --> 01:34:13,729
'cause I know I have
no place to, uh...
1055
01:34:13,762 --> 01:34:15,163
To discharge it.
1056
01:34:18,000 --> 01:34:20,102
But that's the number one issue
at the moment.
1057
01:34:20,135 --> 01:34:22,671
Why does that tie up
to the anger?
1058
01:34:22,704 --> 01:34:27,175
Because the anger occupies
so much space in your life.
1059
01:34:27,209 --> 01:34:30,779
There's very little energy left
for anything else,
1060
01:34:30,812 --> 01:34:34,650
so if you create areas
of interest
1061
01:34:34,683 --> 01:34:36,585
for you,
like empathy for people,
1062
01:34:36,618 --> 01:34:38,153
you're involved
in their lives.
1063
01:34:38,186 --> 01:34:41,823
Energy flows there, so there is
less energy for the anger.
1064
01:34:41,857 --> 01:34:44,026
Look, we are like...
when we come into AA,
1065
01:34:44,059 --> 01:34:46,929
we're like lost souls,
lost fucking souls.
1066
01:34:46,962 --> 01:34:49,031
Your soul is either
hanging off the fucking tree
1067
01:34:49,064 --> 01:34:52,134
or it's over there,
and you have to get it back,
1068
01:34:52,167 --> 01:34:56,972
and by becoming human,
but joining with the other gods,
1069
01:34:57,005 --> 01:35:01,810
uh, slowly it got accommodated
sort of in its own fucking time.
1070
01:35:03,245 --> 01:35:05,213
And you have...
you become your own self,
1071
01:35:05,247 --> 01:35:08,817
and you give yourself
your dignity, not she.
1072
01:35:08,850 --> 01:35:12,955
That's... then the codependency
ends there at that stage,
1073
01:35:12,988 --> 01:35:13,989
you understand?
1074
01:35:22,898 --> 01:35:25,000
Interior: cafe, nightfall.
1075
01:35:25,033 --> 01:35:27,836
The two enter cafe
and make their way to the bar.
1076
01:35:27,869 --> 01:35:31,106
Clint moves behind bar
and prepares them warm drinks,
1077
01:35:31,139 --> 01:35:33,008
knowing already what they want.
1078
01:35:33,041 --> 01:35:34,977
They speak to each other
in Russian,
1079
01:35:35,010 --> 01:35:36,878
and whether Clint knows
the language,
1080
01:35:36,912 --> 01:35:38,914
it is also hard to tell.
1081
01:35:38,947 --> 01:35:40,983
After encouragement
from the mother,
1082
01:35:41,016 --> 01:35:43,051
the girl stands up
and opens her clothes
1083
01:35:43,085 --> 01:35:44,987
to reveal she is pregnant.
1084
01:35:45,020 --> 01:35:46,822
Clint's eyes come alive.
1085
01:35:46,855 --> 01:35:49,925
The feeling is as if
they traversed the galaxy
1086
01:35:49,958 --> 01:35:52,861
and now were
its only two inhabitants.
1087
01:35:52,894 --> 01:35:55,597
On the furs,
they begin to make love,
1088
01:35:55,630 --> 01:35:58,000
both breathing
in rhythm as one.
1089
01:35:58,033 --> 01:36:01,036
They come together.
It sounds like music.
1090
01:37:56,785 --> 01:37:58,653
Um, I'm tired.
1091
01:38:13,969 --> 01:38:16,004
I'm... I'm gonna go to sleep.
1092
01:38:16,037 --> 01:38:18,274
I'm sorry, I'm really sorry.
1093
01:38:41,930 --> 01:38:43,031
Fuck.
1094
01:39:35,551 --> 01:39:36,885
Fuck.
1095
01:42:10,706 --> 01:42:13,342
Take this.
1096
01:42:13,376 --> 01:42:15,210
It's all I have.
1097
01:44:32,809 --> 01:44:33,897
Good evening.
1098
01:44:35,368 --> 01:44:37,479
A quick coffee, please.
1099
01:44:47,903 --> 01:44:49,689
- Here's your coffee.
- Thanks.
1100
01:44:53,298 --> 01:44:54,388
See you, thanks.
1101
01:45:16,358 --> 01:45:17,826
Yo!
1102
01:45:17,860 --> 01:45:19,461
Hey!
1103
01:45:20,563 --> 01:45:21,864
Goddamn it, what are you...
1104
01:45:21,897 --> 01:45:25,099
- Just stop it!
- Where are you going?
1105
01:45:25,133 --> 01:45:27,503
- Why don't you wait for me?
- Listen, you stop.
1106
01:45:27,536 --> 01:45:29,471
You know damn well I need you!
1107
01:45:29,505 --> 01:45:31,239
I need you to go to the...
1108
01:45:34,643 --> 01:45:35,644
What's wrong with you?
1109
01:45:35,678 --> 01:45:37,245
Don't scream at her!
1110
01:45:38,764 --> 01:45:39,968
Fuck you!
1111
01:45:40,449 --> 01:45:42,318
- What? Stop what?
- Don't touch me!
1112
01:45:42,351 --> 01:45:44,118
What are you doing?
We just go out...
1113
01:45:45,654 --> 01:45:47,489
...and you don't even help me
with anything!
1114
01:45:47,523 --> 01:45:48,357
Stop it!
1115
01:45:49,358 --> 01:45:50,726
You're a big problem!
1116
01:45:50,759 --> 01:45:52,494
I need you, I need you.
1117
01:45:52,528 --> 01:45:54,128
Why... why did we go out?
1118
01:45:54,162 --> 01:45:56,130
- To fix the lamp!
- Oh my God.
1119
01:45:56,164 --> 01:45:58,132
What do you? You run off.
What the fuck?
1120
01:45:58,166 --> 01:46:00,469
This is not about what you do,
look at you!
1121
01:46:00,502 --> 01:46:01,804
What? You're the problem!
1122
01:46:01,837 --> 01:46:03,339
You're the fucking problem!
1123
01:46:03,372 --> 01:46:04,773
Don't scream at her!
1124
01:46:04,807 --> 01:46:08,209
Look at you, you look insane!
1125
01:46:10,577 --> 01:46:11,963
What happened?
1126
01:46:12,062 --> 01:46:13,380
He's crazy!
1127
01:46:13,649 --> 01:46:14,717
You are the problem!
1128
01:46:14,909 --> 01:46:16,091
What happened?
1129
01:46:16,318 --> 01:46:17,453
That's my baby!
1130
01:46:17,918 --> 01:46:20,460
Did they steal your wallet?
1131
01:46:20,532 --> 01:46:21,579
Nothing!
1132
01:46:22,000 --> 01:46:23,190
Nothing!
1133
01:46:29,898 --> 01:46:31,199
Fuck.
1134
01:46:36,839 --> 01:46:38,874
Fucking shit!
1135
01:46:43,779 --> 01:46:45,514
Fucking bitch!
1136
01:46:47,516 --> 01:46:48,817
What the...
1137
01:46:54,323 --> 01:46:55,524
Shit!
1138
01:47:10,806 --> 01:47:15,377
If you really check up deeper
what you do,
1139
01:47:15,411 --> 01:47:18,447
what you did,
since you were born up to now,
1140
01:47:18,480 --> 01:47:22,618
which is really worthwhile
to bring the true happiness
1141
01:47:22,651 --> 01:47:24,720
and the joyful life,
what you did?
1142
01:47:24,753 --> 01:47:25,854
You check up.
1143
01:47:29,358 --> 01:47:32,294
You check up.
Don't look others.
1144
01:47:32,327 --> 01:47:34,363
You check up your own action.
1145
01:47:41,270 --> 01:47:44,707
You have your body,
your speech, your mind.
1146
01:47:44,740 --> 01:47:46,675
These three.
1147
01:47:46,709 --> 01:47:50,913
Okay, these three actions,
what you did worthwhile?
1148
01:47:53,482 --> 01:47:55,249
You check up that way.
1149
01:47:55,284 --> 01:47:56,852
It's so simple.
1150
01:49:46,128 --> 01:49:47,596
Look at me.
1151
01:49:47,629 --> 01:49:49,064
Look at me!
1152
01:49:49,097 --> 01:49:51,133
Look at me!
1153
01:49:51,166 --> 01:49:52,901
Look at me!
1154
01:49:52,935 --> 01:49:55,037
Oh my God!
1155
01:49:58,674 --> 01:50:00,108
No!
1156
01:50:03,879 --> 01:50:05,781
Pull.
1157
01:50:05,814 --> 01:50:07,616
Pull!
1158
01:50:07,649 --> 01:50:09,151
Stop it!
1159
01:50:10,786 --> 01:50:13,021
Stop it!
1160
01:50:15,557 --> 01:50:18,927
You make like you're insane!
1161
01:50:18,961 --> 01:50:22,164
I got enough of you!
1162
01:50:22,197 --> 01:50:25,000
I can't stand you!
1163
01:50:25,033 --> 01:50:29,471
I don't love you, I'm sorry,
I don't love you!
1164
01:53:57,079 --> 01:53:58,680
Bada.
1165
01:54:00,422 --> 01:54:05,422
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