1 00:00:06,000 --> 00:00:12,074 Support us and become VIP member to remove all ads from www.OpenSubtitles.org 2 00:01:29,512 --> 00:01:34,512 Subtitles by explosiveskull www.OpenSubtitles.org 3 00:02:19,615 --> 00:02:20,649 Okay. 4 00:02:43,488 --> 00:02:44,956 You are very brave. 5 00:02:45,998 --> 00:02:48,364 To be brave for doing something. 6 00:02:48,633 --> 00:02:52,290 You live in Rome, then you are brave. 7 00:02:52,481 --> 00:02:53,482 Okay, okay. 8 00:02:53,676 --> 00:02:54,961 First of all. 9 00:02:56,123 --> 00:02:57,020 Good. 10 00:02:57,263 --> 00:02:58,731 What did you do this morning? 11 00:02:58,836 --> 00:03:04,116 This morning I had some work to do 12 00:03:04,320 --> 00:03:07,806 'cause I'm still preparing this new project. 13 00:03:09,266 --> 00:03:14,989 We are waiting for the money, as usual it's not easy, 14 00:03:17,769 --> 00:03:21,295 but I'm confident we're gonna find it. 15 00:03:21,484 --> 00:03:26,883 So, for homework. 16 00:03:27,313 --> 00:03:31,308 Write ten sentences in past continuous tense 17 00:03:31,435 --> 00:03:33,844 using verbs you like. 18 00:03:34,036 --> 00:03:39,344 Any verb you choose, the important is that is past continuous. 19 00:03:39,609 --> 00:03:42,396 Okay, wait. 20 00:03:43,259 --> 00:03:44,693 I have a little thing for you. 21 00:03:45,043 --> 00:03:48,689 Turn around, it's a surprise. 22 00:03:48,766 --> 00:03:50,841 Don't be scared. 23 00:04:14,100 --> 00:04:15,634 Do I have to make a wish? 24 00:05:29,653 --> 00:05:30,978 How's the baby? 25 00:05:31,206 --> 00:05:32,595 Good. 26 00:05:33,993 --> 00:05:35,255 Does she speak Italian? 27 00:05:35,667 --> 00:05:39,593 Yes, but also Moldavian, English. 28 00:05:41,035 --> 00:05:43,091 Bits of them together. 29 00:05:45,334 --> 00:05:49,520 It's complicated, 'cause I don't understand Moldavian. 30 00:05:49,584 --> 00:05:52,119 - It's the mother's fault. - Yes! 31 00:05:52,911 --> 00:05:54,077 Women! 32 00:06:13,683 --> 00:06:15,794 - How are you? - Good. 33 00:06:25,517 --> 00:06:30,988 It's not the season for radicchio trevigiano, right? 34 00:06:31,049 --> 00:06:34,001 No, trevigiano is not now. 35 00:06:42,108 --> 00:06:46,826 I'll come back tomorrow for pineapple and beans. 36 00:08:05,527 --> 00:08:08,363 - Hey! - Hey! 37 00:08:18,040 --> 00:08:19,975 Mama? 38 00:08:20,008 --> 00:08:21,844 - Mama? - Yes? 39 00:08:21,877 --> 00:08:25,848 - Well, can you... can you order? - No, we did, we did. 40 00:08:31,854 --> 00:08:34,056 No, she told me that she's, like, 41 00:08:34,089 --> 00:08:36,458 gonna take this little clay 42 00:08:36,492 --> 00:08:39,061 and put it in another thing and... 43 00:08:40,395 --> 00:08:41,797 I can't understand shit. 44 00:08:50,372 --> 00:08:52,608 Yes, I put some salt. 45 00:08:52,641 --> 00:08:55,511 Let's put it all if... if it's gonna last... 46 00:08:55,544 --> 00:08:59,481 Hey, when I... when I speak to you in Italian, help me! 47 00:08:59,515 --> 00:09:01,483 Please don't answer in English, huh? 48 00:09:01,517 --> 00:09:03,652 - Okay. - Okay. 49 00:09:14,730 --> 00:09:16,431 - All right. - Is it done? 50 00:09:22,571 --> 00:09:24,006 Yeah, no. 51 00:09:26,108 --> 00:09:27,442 Okay? 52 00:09:27,476 --> 00:09:29,011 - Two minutes and we eat. - Okay. 53 00:09:31,980 --> 00:09:33,615 Mama, look! 54 00:09:45,494 --> 00:09:47,129 They are the only two inhabitants. 55 00:09:47,162 --> 00:09:49,498 All that is heard is the sound of their breath. 56 00:09:49,531 --> 00:09:51,834 Mother asleep by bar, covered up and warm, 57 00:09:51,867 --> 00:09:56,505 but now appears... appears far away. 58 00:09:56,538 --> 00:09:58,774 Clint kneels before the girl. 59 00:10:28,637 --> 00:10:30,606 Pupa, you hungry? Hungry? 60 00:10:31,773 --> 00:10:32,741 Yeah? 61 00:10:34,142 --> 00:10:36,945 Nikki, do you want a lot? 62 00:10:36,979 --> 00:10:39,715 Are you hungry? 63 00:10:39,748 --> 00:10:41,617 This. 64 00:10:41,650 --> 00:10:43,118 Put it. 65 00:10:48,991 --> 00:10:51,426 - Want some oil? - No, grazie. 66 00:11:09,544 --> 00:11:10,779 So we're ready. 67 00:13:16,171 --> 00:13:18,206 - Yo. - Hey. 68 00:13:18,240 --> 00:13:20,242 - Did she go down? - Yes. 69 00:13:20,276 --> 00:13:22,711 - Easy? - Finally. 70 00:13:22,744 --> 00:13:24,980 - Is she asleep? - Finally asleep. 71 00:13:27,015 --> 00:13:30,353 I'm reading this thing, I don't know... 72 00:13:30,386 --> 00:13:32,220 What is it about? 73 00:13:32,255 --> 00:13:34,122 No, it's, um, you know, 74 00:13:34,156 --> 00:13:36,958 it's the section with, uh, you know, 75 00:13:36,992 --> 00:13:38,994 the thing that you... the feeling is 76 00:13:39,027 --> 00:13:41,863 they traverse the galaxy and now on the other side, 77 00:13:41,897 --> 00:13:44,699 they're... it's only two inhabitants. 78 00:13:44,733 --> 00:13:46,701 All that is heard is the sound of their breath. 79 00:13:46,735 --> 00:13:49,104 Mother asleep by bar, covered up and warm, 80 00:13:49,137 --> 00:13:50,872 but now appears. 81 00:13:50,906 --> 00:13:52,808 Clint kneels before Russian girl. 82 00:13:52,841 --> 00:13:54,042 That part. 83 00:13:55,644 --> 00:13:58,713 I just don't know whether it's, um... 84 00:13:58,747 --> 00:14:00,182 too sentimental, or... 85 00:14:00,215 --> 00:14:02,717 And also, I... 86 00:14:02,751 --> 00:14:05,654 - No, it seems so sweet. - I don't know... 87 00:14:05,687 --> 00:14:07,356 - You like it? - Yes. 88 00:14:07,390 --> 00:14:10,192 I think it's very... 89 00:14:10,225 --> 00:14:12,894 It's like a dream, it's like... 90 00:14:14,696 --> 00:14:19,701 ...something, you know, out of this world. 91 00:14:19,734 --> 00:14:22,771 At least, you know, you have a purpose to... 92 00:14:22,804 --> 00:14:24,307 No, I think... I don't know. 93 00:14:24,340 --> 00:14:26,808 There's something wrong about it, I don't know. 94 00:14:26,842 --> 00:14:29,111 I had something else I wanted to... 95 00:14:33,849 --> 00:14:35,150 How are you? 96 00:14:36,419 --> 00:14:38,220 I'm tired. 97 00:14:38,254 --> 00:14:40,956 - Yeah? - I'm tired. 98 00:14:40,989 --> 00:14:44,293 I'm tired, you know, she's really... 99 00:14:44,327 --> 00:14:47,896 - She seems good, though, huh? - She's good, but she's... 100 00:14:47,929 --> 00:14:51,666 You know, it's not like you just stay with her. 101 00:14:51,700 --> 00:14:53,835 - I know. - You really gotta be very... 102 00:14:53,869 --> 00:14:58,441 all your focus is only the baby, the baby, the baby. 103 00:14:58,474 --> 00:15:00,309 - I know, I know, I know. - You forgot about... 104 00:15:00,343 --> 00:15:01,877 I know it better than anyone. 105 00:15:01,910 --> 00:15:06,014 - Yes. - I think, you know, it's normal 106 00:15:06,047 --> 00:15:09,252 with a baby, but, you know, you just gotta... 107 00:15:11,454 --> 00:15:13,422 Unless you aren't happy with me anymore. 108 00:15:15,391 --> 00:15:16,858 You don't even know. 109 00:15:16,892 --> 00:15:18,960 - Sometimes. - I know, I know. 110 00:15:18,994 --> 00:15:21,129 - Sometimes. - Wrong question. 111 00:15:21,163 --> 00:15:24,766 Sometimes I am... 112 00:15:24,799 --> 00:15:27,702 You know, sometimes you just don't talk with me, 113 00:15:27,736 --> 00:15:30,138 you don't communicate with me, 114 00:15:30,172 --> 00:15:31,840 you don't... 115 00:15:31,873 --> 00:15:33,476 - I know. - You know... 116 00:15:33,509 --> 00:15:36,445 - We get busy. - You're so busy, 117 00:15:36,479 --> 00:15:40,449 and you forget about that I'm a woman 118 00:15:40,483 --> 00:15:42,150 and I'm different. 119 00:15:42,184 --> 00:15:44,986 Okay, well, what should I know? 120 00:15:46,855 --> 00:15:48,357 Hmm? 121 00:15:48,391 --> 00:15:49,425 Yeah. 122 00:15:49,458 --> 00:15:51,760 You forget I'm a man, huh? 123 00:15:51,793 --> 00:15:54,430 This is what I'm talking about. 124 00:15:54,463 --> 00:15:56,965 I forget you're a man also 125 00:15:56,998 --> 00:15:59,868 because I have this little... 126 00:15:59,901 --> 00:16:01,102 baby. 127 00:16:01,136 --> 00:16:02,237 I know. 128 00:16:03,439 --> 00:16:05,073 Us. 129 00:16:21,390 --> 00:16:23,259 She's asleep now. 130 00:16:24,560 --> 00:16:26,127 Not here. 131 00:16:33,201 --> 00:16:34,869 Touch. 132 00:16:36,838 --> 00:16:38,274 It's so nice. 133 00:17:09,070 --> 00:17:11,440 Oh, such a beautiful ass. 134 00:17:12,907 --> 00:17:14,809 Oh, baby. 135 00:18:40,929 --> 00:18:42,631 Mama. 136 00:18:42,665 --> 00:18:45,301 - Mama. - Wait. 137 00:18:45,334 --> 00:18:47,470 - The baby. - What? The baby. 138 00:18:47,503 --> 00:18:48,604 Yes. 139 00:18:50,171 --> 00:18:52,274 - Wait a second. - Mama, Mama. 140 00:19:18,334 --> 00:19:20,369 Oh! It's okay? 141 00:19:20,403 --> 00:19:23,238 Okay, sorry, I walked too fast. 142 00:19:41,490 --> 00:19:43,091 Okay. 143 00:19:45,728 --> 00:19:47,263 More? 144 00:19:49,102 --> 00:19:51,364 Elisa, don't be angry. 145 00:19:51,451 --> 00:19:52,906 I am angry. 146 00:19:54,665 --> 00:19:56,562 Go hug Anna. 147 00:20:03,050 --> 00:20:04,471 She is jealous... 148 00:20:04,657 --> 00:20:07,993 She's angry 'cause Anna doesn't want to give her the bubbles. 149 00:20:08,308 --> 00:20:10,204 Anna, give her the bubbles. 150 00:20:15,724 --> 00:20:18,159 DeeDee. 151 00:20:18,193 --> 00:20:19,662 So fancy. 152 00:20:19,695 --> 00:20:21,497 What do you think? 153 00:20:32,173 --> 00:20:34,108 DeeDee. 154 00:21:50,442 --> 00:21:53,679 DeeDee, do you want to go get ice cream? 155 00:23:10,599 --> 00:23:11,934 Ahh! 156 00:23:11,967 --> 00:23:14,403 - Ciao. - What's happening? 157 00:23:15,537 --> 00:23:18,307 Oh my God, you look so good! 158 00:23:18,340 --> 00:23:20,776 Where have you been, what you did? 159 00:23:20,809 --> 00:23:23,545 - Gelato. - Gelato, fragola? 160 00:23:23,579 --> 00:23:24,546 Fragola. 161 00:23:26,882 --> 00:23:28,651 - Okay. - Okay. 162 00:23:28,684 --> 00:23:30,853 Lisa... Lisa cried? 163 00:23:30,886 --> 00:23:32,488 Lisa cried? 164 00:23:35,257 --> 00:23:36,792 Why Lisa cried? 165 00:23:36,825 --> 00:23:38,293 Oh my God. 166 00:23:38,327 --> 00:23:40,194 It's okay. 167 00:23:40,228 --> 00:23:41,730 We're gonna come back. 168 00:23:41,764 --> 00:23:44,733 Yes, we're gonna still play with her. 169 00:23:44,767 --> 00:23:47,201 I gotta do something real quick, okay? 170 00:23:47,235 --> 00:23:48,570 Yes. 171 00:23:51,774 --> 00:23:53,676 Let's wash our hands. 172 00:24:24,273 --> 00:24:26,542 Exterior: snow country, day. 173 00:24:26,575 --> 00:24:29,845 Credits over wild winter landscape. 174 00:24:29,878 --> 00:24:32,715 When I had been pondering many things to myself 175 00:24:32,748 --> 00:24:35,350 for a long time and had for many days 176 00:24:35,384 --> 00:24:39,254 been seeking my own self and what my own good was 177 00:24:39,288 --> 00:24:41,824 and what evil was to be avoided, 178 00:24:41,857 --> 00:24:44,326 it suddenly spoke to me. 179 00:24:44,359 --> 00:24:45,561 What was it? 180 00:24:45,594 --> 00:24:47,963 I, myself, or someone else, 181 00:24:47,996 --> 00:24:50,699 inside or outside me. 182 00:24:50,733 --> 00:24:54,503 This is the very thing I would love to know 183 00:24:54,536 --> 00:24:55,904 but don't. 184 00:25:53,562 --> 00:25:55,731 Sexy, beautiful, stupid. 185 00:25:58,505 --> 00:26:04,685 It's important to find the gesture in an organic way, 186 00:26:05,184 --> 00:26:08,188 a simple way. 187 00:26:09,538 --> 00:26:12,180 I like this movement. 188 00:26:13,948 --> 00:26:15,036 Two... 189 00:26:17,428 --> 00:26:20,941 Go back to the circle. 190 00:26:21,012 --> 00:26:22,785 Three, keep going. 191 00:26:33,602 --> 00:26:35,871 I want to say, 192 00:26:35,904 --> 00:26:39,508 the idea is, these are all simple games, 193 00:26:39,541 --> 00:26:45,414 but I like very much the idea of distraction, 194 00:26:45,447 --> 00:26:48,517 the double... the double focus that you have, 195 00:26:48,550 --> 00:26:50,652 because you're all... for me, 196 00:26:50,686 --> 00:26:55,924 performing is always between control and abandon. 197 00:26:58,760 --> 00:27:03,432 Okay. Um, so when we do some of these distracting things, 198 00:27:03,465 --> 00:27:05,567 things that don't seem to go together, 199 00:27:05,601 --> 00:27:07,936 it makes you feel off-balance, 200 00:27:07,970 --> 00:27:09,838 but if you can relax in that state, 201 00:27:09,872 --> 00:27:11,907 it makes you more emotionally available. 202 00:27:19,448 --> 00:27:23,418 Your job is to approach that... that action that you know 203 00:27:23,452 --> 00:27:27,022 with a way that's not to show but to do, 204 00:27:27,055 --> 00:27:30,525 to do the action, do the action in a pure way, 205 00:27:30,559 --> 00:27:33,962 so the action is born, and when the action is born, 206 00:27:33,996 --> 00:27:35,530 you have a reaction to it, 207 00:27:35,564 --> 00:27:37,866 and that propels you to something. 208 00:27:37,900 --> 00:27:40,502 But it's sometimes imitated emotion 209 00:27:40,535 --> 00:27:41,770 or demonstrated emotion, 210 00:27:41,803 --> 00:27:44,439 not really felt emotion or experience. 211 00:27:44,473 --> 00:27:48,510 If you're only doing emotional things 212 00:27:48,543 --> 00:27:52,080 that you feel safe with, it's... it's for you. 213 00:27:52,114 --> 00:27:53,949 It's... you gotta go beyond yourself. 214 00:27:53,982 --> 00:27:55,851 - Okay. - We all know it in life. 215 00:27:55,884 --> 00:27:58,153 When we do things and we forget about ourselves 216 00:27:58,186 --> 00:28:02,024 and we're just doing the action in a pure way, 217 00:28:02,057 --> 00:28:06,628 that's when we get closer to experiencing, for me, 218 00:28:06,662 --> 00:28:08,130 the beauty of life. 219 00:28:51,807 --> 00:28:54,609 So I'm making this movie in Miami 220 00:28:54,643 --> 00:29:00,916 and I'm... I'm deep into using crack cocaine. 221 00:29:00,949 --> 00:29:03,118 I'm drinking, heroin. 222 00:29:03,151 --> 00:29:04,786 I'm out, I'm out. 223 00:29:04,820 --> 00:29:07,723 Hey! Good to see you. 224 00:29:07,756 --> 00:29:09,258 - Yeah, I'm good. - Good to see you. 225 00:29:09,292 --> 00:29:10,692 It's hot, but... 226 00:29:10,726 --> 00:29:11,960 Look at that fucking water. 227 00:29:12,861 --> 00:29:14,029 Like a beer. 228 00:29:14,062 --> 00:29:15,197 I'll see you down there in a minute. 229 00:29:15,230 --> 00:29:16,265 Yeah. 230 00:29:21,169 --> 00:29:26,708 You know, and we're making this movie in Miami 231 00:29:26,742 --> 00:29:30,178 at a time that Miami is, like, the nightlife is exploding, 232 00:29:30,212 --> 00:29:32,714 and just made a movie... 233 00:29:32,748 --> 00:29:34,850 I don't have my regular people with me. 234 00:29:34,883 --> 00:29:39,121 I gotta make a movie that's gonna be the first video... 235 00:29:39,154 --> 00:29:41,089 movie shot with a video camera. 236 00:29:41,123 --> 00:29:44,092 I'm feeling really like it's... I'm it, you know, I'm... 237 00:29:44,126 --> 00:29:46,895 my ego is like, "I'm gonna do this thing," 238 00:29:46,928 --> 00:29:49,898 and not only... I'm gonna make a remake 239 00:29:49,931 --> 00:29:52,167 of La Dolce Vita. 240 00:29:52,200 --> 00:29:54,636 American remake, 241 00:29:54,669 --> 00:29:57,906 and I got this young Cuban actor 242 00:29:57,939 --> 00:30:01,576 and, uh, he's, uh, he's down with it 243 00:30:01,610 --> 00:30:05,281 and he's also... when I get there, you know, 244 00:30:05,314 --> 00:30:08,317 the guy's in rehab, but I'm good with that, 245 00:30:08,351 --> 00:30:10,986 and I just gotta get him out of rehab, and I do. 246 00:30:11,019 --> 00:30:14,290 I get him out of rehab. I remember I even, you know, 247 00:30:14,323 --> 00:30:16,658 bringing him stuff when he wasn't in rehab. 248 00:30:16,691 --> 00:30:20,896 He'd meet us outside... outside the place, 249 00:30:20,929 --> 00:30:22,998 like middle of the night, it was crazy. 250 00:30:23,031 --> 00:30:24,766 But I needed this kid. 251 00:30:24,800 --> 00:30:28,703 And, uh, one day, I'm... I'm working on the set 252 00:30:28,737 --> 00:30:33,208 and I see this extra, this chick, she's good looking. 253 00:30:33,241 --> 00:30:35,143 You know, I shouldn't be messing with her, 254 00:30:35,177 --> 00:30:39,214 but I'm... I'm it, I'm having... I can do whatever I want, right? 255 00:30:39,247 --> 00:30:41,716 I'm feeling strong and I'm prancing. 256 00:30:41,750 --> 00:30:43,985 So I go out with her, we're out late, 257 00:30:44,019 --> 00:30:47,022 and I go to my friend's place that's got an all-night... 258 00:30:47,055 --> 00:30:50,125 it's like a diner, but it's a hip place, you know, 259 00:30:50,158 --> 00:30:53,095 it's like a cool, fancy place. 260 00:30:53,128 --> 00:30:57,732 I get in there, I lay some... a hundred dollar bill on the bar 261 00:30:57,766 --> 00:30:59,768 and I say, "Hey, buy these guys a drink." 262 00:30:59,801 --> 00:31:03,071 I go in, go out with the owner of the place 263 00:31:03,105 --> 00:31:07,042 to do some stuff, and when I come back, 264 00:31:07,075 --> 00:31:09,345 the chick's not there. 265 00:31:09,378 --> 00:31:11,913 Uh, you know, 266 00:31:11,947 --> 00:31:13,915 she's gone, and the guy says, 267 00:31:13,949 --> 00:31:15,318 "Hey, who's gonna pay for the drinks?" 268 00:31:15,351 --> 00:31:16,985 I said, "I left a hundred." 269 00:31:17,018 --> 00:31:19,688 He said, "No, no, I didn't see any hundred." 270 00:31:19,721 --> 00:31:22,224 So I'm really pissed, I get on the phone, 271 00:31:22,258 --> 00:31:24,960 and I get her number and I say, "You fucking bitch!" 272 00:31:24,993 --> 00:31:27,162 You know, really chew her out nasty, 273 00:31:27,195 --> 00:31:29,831 like mean, like crazy, like, you know, 274 00:31:29,865 --> 00:31:34,002 she betrayed this... this guy that was happening, you know. 275 00:31:34,035 --> 00:31:36,972 What I didn't know is this girl had a boyfriend, 276 00:31:37,005 --> 00:31:41,109 and her boyfriend was crazy about what she was doing 277 00:31:41,143 --> 00:31:44,779 with these movie people, and he was crazy jealous. 278 00:31:44,813 --> 00:31:48,150 She talked about, you know, being afraid of this guy. 279 00:31:48,183 --> 00:31:52,154 Well, I go back to my South Beach motel, 280 00:31:52,187 --> 00:31:54,323 I forgot to double lock the door, 281 00:31:54,357 --> 00:31:58,093 and I think I'm dreaming, 282 00:31:58,126 --> 00:32:00,028 I go to bed and I think I'm dreaming 283 00:32:00,061 --> 00:32:02,265 that some guy's beating the shit out of me. 284 00:32:02,298 --> 00:32:05,901 Wailing away on me, just slamming me in the face. 285 00:32:05,934 --> 00:32:07,403 But I'm not dreaming. 286 00:32:07,436 --> 00:32:10,939 This guy came in, he's the boyfriend, 287 00:32:10,972 --> 00:32:13,342 he's fucking, you know, cursing me out 288 00:32:13,376 --> 00:32:16,745 about what I did to the girl, and he's beating me really bad. 289 00:32:16,778 --> 00:32:20,148 My face is all blown up, I mean, like this. 290 00:32:20,182 --> 00:32:25,354 The guy leaves, they grab me, bring me to the hospital, 291 00:32:25,388 --> 00:32:27,856 you know, nobody's there, I'm all alone, you know, 292 00:32:27,889 --> 00:32:31,193 and I'm messed up, and my ego is so crazy 293 00:32:31,226 --> 00:32:34,029 that I also think that they want to kill me, 294 00:32:34,062 --> 00:32:36,332 you know, I get these paranoid thoughts of... 295 00:32:36,365 --> 00:32:39,234 All I can think about is being safe. 296 00:32:39,268 --> 00:32:45,274 So, I... I hear that there's a rehab place 297 00:32:45,308 --> 00:32:47,310 in this hospital on the third floor, 298 00:32:47,343 --> 00:32:50,379 and it's kind of a lockdown, like, only family can come, 299 00:32:50,413 --> 00:32:53,848 so I go into rehab. 300 00:32:55,183 --> 00:32:58,354 But I have no intention of getting sober. 301 00:32:58,387 --> 00:33:01,424 None at all, I mean, this... all this shit happens. 302 00:33:01,457 --> 00:33:03,326 I almost die, you know. 303 00:33:03,359 --> 00:33:06,462 Still, I don't get the idea that, you know, 304 00:33:06,495 --> 00:33:08,297 what I'm doing is a problem. 305 00:33:08,331 --> 00:33:10,031 I'm still bigger than that, 306 00:33:10,065 --> 00:33:11,933 I'm still more important than that. 307 00:33:11,967 --> 00:33:13,835 It still isn't occurring to me. 308 00:33:13,868 --> 00:33:16,171 It fucking... it's hard to believe. 309 00:33:16,204 --> 00:33:18,940 I mean, this is 12 years before. 310 00:33:18,974 --> 00:33:20,208 So... 311 00:33:22,210 --> 00:33:23,812 You know, I go in this place, 312 00:33:23,845 --> 00:33:27,283 and I'm still using, and my dealer's coming. 313 00:33:27,316 --> 00:33:29,117 You know, my face starts to heal, 314 00:33:29,150 --> 00:33:32,153 and I'm feeling like I can do it again, 315 00:33:32,187 --> 00:33:38,226 so it's just, you know, amazing that it took me so long. 316 00:33:38,261 --> 00:33:42,797 I mean, yesterday was my birthday. 317 00:33:42,831 --> 00:33:44,567 It's been six years. 318 00:33:48,304 --> 00:33:50,473 And, you know, 319 00:33:50,506 --> 00:33:53,342 I want to thank everybody. 320 00:33:53,376 --> 00:33:56,811 Also, something magical happened, 321 00:33:56,845 --> 00:33:59,214 or at least for me it was magical, 322 00:33:59,247 --> 00:34:03,985 that last month, um, a guy came, 323 00:34:04,019 --> 00:34:08,223 he was a tourist from the States, 324 00:34:08,257 --> 00:34:11,059 and he came to the meeting, he came here, 325 00:34:11,092 --> 00:34:16,965 and afterwards, we were outside and he came up to me, 326 00:34:16,998 --> 00:34:21,002 and he said, you know, 327 00:34:21,036 --> 00:34:24,573 "I was... I was your doctor, I was your counselor 328 00:34:24,607 --> 00:34:28,344 in rehab in Miami, and, uh, 329 00:34:28,377 --> 00:34:32,113 I followed... I followed, uh... 330 00:34:32,147 --> 00:34:35,850 I followed your movies and I followed you, and I... 331 00:34:35,884 --> 00:34:39,388 I just want to say that, um, 332 00:34:39,422 --> 00:34:42,358 I'm happy to see you alive." 333 00:34:42,391 --> 00:34:47,496 And I said, "Thank you," and that was really beautiful. 334 00:34:47,530 --> 00:34:49,398 And thank you all. 335 00:34:57,238 --> 00:34:59,475 Okay, so the time's beaten us once again. 336 00:34:59,508 --> 00:35:02,210 Folks, we'll finish with the Serenity Prayer. 337 00:35:08,917 --> 00:35:10,586 - God... - God... 338 00:35:10,619 --> 00:35:15,324 grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, 339 00:35:15,358 --> 00:35:17,660 the courage to change the things I can, 340 00:35:17,693 --> 00:35:20,061 and the wisdom to know the difference. 341 00:35:20,095 --> 00:35:22,431 Keep coming back, it works if you work it, 342 00:35:22,465 --> 00:35:24,199 so work it, you're worth it. 343 00:35:25,267 --> 00:35:26,635 Well done, man. Good job. 344 00:35:26,669 --> 00:35:28,337 Congratulations. 345 00:35:29,938 --> 00:35:31,172 Keep coming back. 346 00:35:31,206 --> 00:35:34,175 - Happy birthday, thanks. - Happy birthday. 347 00:35:34,209 --> 00:35:35,511 Hey. 348 00:35:37,979 --> 00:35:39,348 Hey. 349 00:35:56,265 --> 00:35:58,099 You're never gonna fall. 350 00:35:58,133 --> 00:36:00,068 Okay, we're here, we're here. 351 00:36:02,705 --> 00:36:04,072 Okay, okay. 352 00:36:04,105 --> 00:36:05,307 Goodnight, moon! 353 00:36:05,341 --> 00:36:07,410 Goodnight, we go to sleep! 354 00:36:13,482 --> 00:36:15,016 Okay. 355 00:38:29,485 --> 00:38:35,257 So you've been making speeches to the crowd in the piazza. 356 00:38:37,393 --> 00:38:39,662 I only told some people 357 00:38:39,695 --> 00:38:45,166 that the temple of old laws must fall 358 00:38:45,199 --> 00:38:48,837 and a new temple of truth should be built. 359 00:38:48,871 --> 00:38:50,573 But don't take me literally. 360 00:38:50,606 --> 00:38:54,577 I'm just trying to make myself understood. 361 00:38:54,610 --> 00:38:58,647 Why is someone like you upsetting the people? 362 00:38:58,681 --> 00:39:00,449 Why? 363 00:39:00,482 --> 00:39:03,652 You think you know the truth? 364 00:39:05,186 --> 00:39:06,789 What is truth? 365 00:39:11,260 --> 00:39:13,529 The truth is, 366 00:39:13,562 --> 00:39:14,863 you're in pain. 367 00:39:14,897 --> 00:39:16,365 You have a terrible headache 368 00:39:16,398 --> 00:39:18,867 and you're thinking of suicide. 369 00:39:19,935 --> 00:39:21,403 You can barely look at me. 370 00:39:21,437 --> 00:39:23,839 The way you look at me disturbs me. 371 00:39:23,872 --> 00:39:26,909 I don't want to be a torturer. 372 00:39:26,942 --> 00:39:31,547 But this feeling will go away. 373 00:39:31,580 --> 00:39:32,815 It will. 374 00:39:34,550 --> 00:39:36,318 It's going away. 375 00:39:40,923 --> 00:39:42,658 This feeling... 376 00:39:44,693 --> 00:39:46,495 ...it's going away. 377 00:39:46,528 --> 00:39:50,131 It is, it's going away. 378 00:39:51,533 --> 00:39:53,335 It's going away. 379 00:39:58,273 --> 00:40:01,910 You should go take a walk in the park. 380 00:40:01,944 --> 00:40:05,347 Totally up to you. I could come with you. 381 00:40:05,381 --> 00:40:08,249 You seem like an intelligent man. 382 00:40:10,352 --> 00:40:13,221 The trouble with you is your mind is closed. 383 00:40:13,255 --> 00:40:15,658 You lack empathy. 384 00:40:15,691 --> 00:40:18,226 You only care for your dog. 385 00:40:47,022 --> 00:40:50,325 Tell me, are you a doctor? 386 00:40:50,359 --> 00:40:52,861 No, I'm not a doctor. 387 00:40:53,830 --> 00:40:56,589 How do you know that I was thinking to pet my dog? 388 00:40:58,801 --> 00:41:01,737 Because you made a gesture 389 00:41:01,770 --> 00:41:04,673 as if to stroke something, 390 00:41:04,707 --> 00:41:06,508 and your lips... 391 00:41:09,445 --> 00:41:11,513 You are a doctor. 392 00:41:12,347 --> 00:41:14,248 No. 393 00:41:14,283 --> 00:41:16,285 I'm not a doctor. 394 00:42:49,845 --> 00:42:51,847 Ah, okay. 395 00:42:51,880 --> 00:42:53,882 You think it's too heavy for you? 396 00:42:53,916 --> 00:42:55,984 No, Mama is gonna carry it. 397 00:42:56,018 --> 00:42:58,453 It's too heavy for you to take, I know. 398 00:43:00,422 --> 00:43:02,591 Okay, now... 399 00:43:04,593 --> 00:43:06,728 Tommaso? 400 00:43:06,762 --> 00:43:09,131 - Yeah? - We are about to leave. 401 00:43:09,164 --> 00:43:11,900 - You're going? - Yup. 402 00:43:11,934 --> 00:43:14,903 - Okay. - We're going to Nonna's. 403 00:43:18,874 --> 00:43:21,009 You sure you don't want to come? 404 00:43:21,043 --> 00:43:22,778 You sure you don't want to come with us? 405 00:43:22,811 --> 00:43:24,713 No, I got... I got too much to do. 406 00:43:25,881 --> 00:43:27,583 - You know. - Come on, you... 407 00:43:27,616 --> 00:43:30,385 Let me call you a cab, okay? Did you call a cab? 408 00:43:30,419 --> 00:43:32,120 Oh, no, no, no, I'm gonna go with the metro. 409 00:43:32,154 --> 00:43:33,822 No, no, no, it's too far. 410 00:43:33,856 --> 00:43:35,557 It's too far. Let me call. 411 00:43:35,591 --> 00:43:38,393 - No, no, listen... - No, it's too far for the baby, 412 00:43:38,427 --> 00:43:39,661 and that's a freaky neighborhood. 413 00:43:39,695 --> 00:43:41,864 I'm gonna take the metro and I'm... 414 00:43:41,897 --> 00:43:44,166 - I'm calling a taxi. - No, please don't call it. 415 00:43:44,199 --> 00:43:45,534 Please. 416 00:43:46,702 --> 00:43:47,669 No, please. 417 00:43:50,806 --> 00:43:52,040 - No. - No, it's okay. 418 00:43:52,074 --> 00:43:53,575 No, I'm gonna take the metro. 419 00:43:53,609 --> 00:43:55,477 - Are you kidding me? - Grazie. 420 00:43:55,510 --> 00:43:58,180 No, it's gonna... it's gonna come in just a little... 421 00:43:58,213 --> 00:44:00,716 - Give me some money, please. - Oh, okay, yeah. 422 00:44:00,749 --> 00:44:03,719 But I'm not gonna take the cab. 423 00:44:03,752 --> 00:44:06,622 I wanna take the metro. It's cool. 424 00:44:06,655 --> 00:44:08,123 I'm really cool with that. 425 00:44:08,156 --> 00:44:09,958 - It's coming. - No, really. 426 00:44:09,992 --> 00:44:13,528 - I'm calling you a taxi. - Tommaso, don't do this to me. 427 00:44:13,562 --> 00:44:15,331 I'm really good with it. 428 00:44:56,238 --> 00:44:57,773 Wow, okay. 429 00:45:05,647 --> 00:45:06,815 Okay. 430 00:45:07,272 --> 00:45:08,280 Are you tired? 431 00:45:10,336 --> 00:45:12,471 Do we want to finish earlier? 432 00:45:12,921 --> 00:45:13,956 No... 433 00:45:14,256 --> 00:45:17,776 Earlier I had a fight with Nikki 434 00:45:17,850 --> 00:45:23,372 'cause she wanted to get the subway with the baby 435 00:45:23,436 --> 00:45:25,825 and I don't like that... 436 00:45:26,812 --> 00:45:27,920 It's hard, 437 00:45:29,192 --> 00:45:32,928 maybe it's my problem, but... 438 00:45:33,979 --> 00:45:40,582 Lately I believe 439 00:45:40,670 --> 00:45:44,329 that we should stay more relaxed. 440 00:45:44,766 --> 00:45:47,809 - Me? - In general, not you. 441 00:45:50,137 --> 00:45:51,677 I'm trying to learn... 442 00:45:56,413 --> 00:46:01,475 I've learned some breathing exercises. 443 00:46:01,564 --> 00:46:03,659 I can't do that. 444 00:46:04,000 --> 00:46:06,257 - You? - Tommaso, for me it's impossible. 445 00:46:06,346 --> 00:46:08,512 I can't do the breathing. 446 00:46:08,710 --> 00:46:10,245 Inhale in. 447 00:46:12,180 --> 00:46:16,785 Bring it down to that point of meeting down here. 448 00:46:20,256 --> 00:46:24,593 Switch, the other nostril, 449 00:46:24,626 --> 00:46:26,995 then bring the energy up. 450 00:46:30,732 --> 00:46:32,301 And then send it up 451 00:46:32,335 --> 00:46:35,003 through the crown of your head with your diaphragm. 452 00:46:35,037 --> 00:46:37,273 - Okay, we'll breathe together. - Mm-hmm. 453 00:46:42,844 --> 00:46:44,212 Hold. 454 00:46:51,801 --> 00:46:55,842 You stop the breath here. 455 00:46:56,537 --> 00:46:57,799 It's only... 456 00:47:03,198 --> 00:47:04,232 Okay. 457 00:47:06,735 --> 00:47:09,155 I must immediately find a meditation teacher, 458 00:47:11,138 --> 00:47:12,781 I must learn. 459 00:47:14,400 --> 00:47:15,741 When am I gonna see you? 460 00:47:18,621 --> 00:47:20,282 Friday, great. 461 00:47:20,564 --> 00:47:22,495 Have a good day. 462 00:48:52,408 --> 00:48:54,709 Nikki? Tommaso. 463 00:48:56,312 --> 00:48:58,813 - Yo. - Nikki, what... 464 00:48:58,847 --> 00:49:00,283 What? Why are you calling? 465 00:49:00,316 --> 00:49:02,017 I, you know, I've been calling you 466 00:49:02,050 --> 00:49:03,952 and you didn't pick up, what the fuck? 467 00:49:03,985 --> 00:49:05,354 I mean, come on. 468 00:49:05,388 --> 00:49:07,756 - What, what? - I've been trying to reach you, 469 00:49:07,789 --> 00:49:09,824 I've probably called you 50 times. 470 00:49:09,858 --> 00:49:12,160 I just forgot the charger of my phone, are you serious? 471 00:49:12,194 --> 00:49:14,297 Either you don't pick up or it goes to voice mail. 472 00:49:14,330 --> 00:49:15,931 What the fuck? I mean, I worry. 473 00:49:15,964 --> 00:49:17,966 What if something happened to the baby? 474 00:49:17,999 --> 00:49:20,336 - It's not funny. - Well, you don't have to worry. 475 00:49:20,369 --> 00:49:23,038 You know, don't act like a fucking kid, you know? 476 00:49:23,071 --> 00:49:24,440 You got some responsibilities. 477 00:49:24,473 --> 00:49:27,042 I worry about, you know, I worry... 478 00:49:27,075 --> 00:49:29,978 So please, don't... don't do that again, okay? 479 00:49:30,011 --> 00:49:31,880 Everything is fine, don't worry. 480 00:49:31,913 --> 00:49:34,216 - I just forgot the charger. - Okay, pick up next time. 481 00:49:34,249 --> 00:49:35,884 - Okay, okay. - Okay. 482 00:49:35,917 --> 00:49:37,420 - Ciao, ciao. - Ciao. 483 00:49:39,788 --> 00:49:41,066 My wife... 484 00:49:41,719 --> 00:49:47,895 she left the phone charger at home 485 00:49:47,947 --> 00:49:50,520 and it's been impossible to reach her. 486 00:49:50,616 --> 00:49:53,116 She is with the baby, 487 00:49:53,787 --> 00:49:55,453 I started worrying, 488 00:49:55,546 --> 00:49:58,181 so I had to call my mother-in-law. 489 00:49:58,692 --> 00:50:00,367 You had to call all around. 490 00:50:02,844 --> 00:50:04,212 Okay. 491 00:51:23,326 --> 00:51:31,232 Lately, uh, with the mother of my baby girl, DeeDee, uh, 492 00:51:31,267 --> 00:51:34,869 I've had some problems because every time 493 00:51:34,903 --> 00:51:39,240 I try to extend myself to her, do things for her, 494 00:51:39,275 --> 00:51:41,109 she really pushes me away. 495 00:51:41,142 --> 00:51:43,312 She's, like, got issues. 496 00:51:43,346 --> 00:51:49,552 She... she's younger than me, she's, uh, 29. 497 00:51:49,585 --> 00:51:52,921 You'd think she would appreciate my experience. 498 00:51:54,022 --> 00:51:55,957 But, you know, sometimes, she... 499 00:51:55,990 --> 00:51:58,527 she just says, "Oh, let me make my own decision up. 500 00:51:58,561 --> 00:52:01,229 I don't know who I am if I don't make a decision." 501 00:52:01,263 --> 00:52:03,031 And I'm telling you, this goes down 502 00:52:03,064 --> 00:52:06,302 to just very simple things, you know, like what food to eat 503 00:52:06,335 --> 00:52:09,438 or whether to take a taxi or the subway, 504 00:52:09,472 --> 00:52:11,307 or these kinds of things, 505 00:52:11,340 --> 00:52:15,210 and it... it really robs me of, um, 506 00:52:15,243 --> 00:52:18,381 feeling good like I'm taking care of her. 507 00:52:26,020 --> 00:52:29,991 I do know, you know, she has a strange relationship... 508 00:52:30,024 --> 00:52:31,660 well, a rough relationship with her father 509 00:52:31,694 --> 00:52:34,028 because he was an alcoholic 510 00:52:34,062 --> 00:52:36,231 and a bad Russian drunk. 511 00:52:36,265 --> 00:52:39,335 Vodka, you know, he was abusive with the mother. 512 00:52:39,368 --> 00:52:41,370 Eventually, she kicked her out 513 00:52:41,404 --> 00:52:45,441 and he left when she was only four years old. 514 00:52:45,474 --> 00:52:50,413 And then, uh, things started to change in the Eastern Bloc, 515 00:52:50,446 --> 00:52:52,681 and her mother and then her sister went to Moscow 516 00:52:52,715 --> 00:52:55,251 and she got passed around with family and... 517 00:52:55,284 --> 00:52:56,652 and other people. 518 00:52:56,685 --> 00:52:58,521 Um, that's where she lived. 519 00:52:58,554 --> 00:53:00,623 So she grew up very independent. 520 00:53:00,656 --> 00:53:02,691 So she did learn to be self-reliant, 521 00:53:02,725 --> 00:53:05,428 but at the same time, she had these unresolved issues 522 00:53:05,461 --> 00:53:08,531 with her father because she also romanticizes him. 523 00:53:08,564 --> 00:53:10,633 She still wants to talk to him, 524 00:53:10,666 --> 00:53:12,268 but he won't talk to her. 525 00:53:12,301 --> 00:53:14,235 He still is around somewhere, 526 00:53:14,270 --> 00:53:16,472 he's still an alcoholic. 527 00:53:16,505 --> 00:53:18,407 You know. 528 00:53:18,441 --> 00:53:21,377 So that's a little hard to take. 529 00:53:21,410 --> 00:53:25,980 You know, I'm haunted a little bit by the fact that... 530 00:53:26,014 --> 00:53:28,684 my... my DeeDee is three years old, 531 00:53:28,717 --> 00:53:35,658 and when... when I wasn't sober, 532 00:53:35,691 --> 00:53:40,496 I had two adopted children, 533 00:53:40,529 --> 00:53:44,300 and I was not... 534 00:53:44,333 --> 00:53:47,570 I left when, uh... 535 00:53:47,603 --> 00:53:52,308 I basically left, I wasn't there because I wasn't sober, 536 00:53:52,341 --> 00:53:54,477 when my youngest was four years old, 537 00:53:54,510 --> 00:53:58,781 and I think she, you know, it really destroyed her, 538 00:53:58,814 --> 00:54:01,650 and I don't want that to happen again. 539 00:54:01,684 --> 00:54:05,688 I'm sober now, and, uh, 540 00:54:05,721 --> 00:54:08,657 I'm so afraid of it, but I don't know how to do 541 00:54:08,691 --> 00:54:13,161 because I try to take care, and every time I do, you know, 542 00:54:13,194 --> 00:54:19,301 it's like there's no recognition that, um, that... 543 00:54:19,335 --> 00:54:23,405 Even like the idea that the baby needs a father 544 00:54:23,439 --> 00:54:27,676 is like an oppressive or, you know... 545 00:54:27,710 --> 00:54:31,680 She doesn't think that's necessarily true, 546 00:54:31,714 --> 00:54:35,784 and for me, it's essential because it breaks my heart. 547 00:54:35,818 --> 00:54:39,187 I remember the four-year-old, right before I left, 548 00:54:39,220 --> 00:54:42,156 she said to me, uh, 549 00:54:42,190 --> 00:54:46,395 "Are you leaving because I make too much noise?" 550 00:54:46,428 --> 00:54:48,430 And the truth is, she was the quietest, 551 00:54:48,464 --> 00:54:50,432 sweetest girl in the world, 552 00:54:50,466 --> 00:54:52,735 so that... that always stays with me, 553 00:54:52,768 --> 00:54:57,506 and I just don't want that to happen again, and I'm... 554 00:54:57,540 --> 00:54:59,642 I'm happy about a lot of things. 555 00:54:59,675 --> 00:55:02,678 I'm happy that I'm sober, but, uh, 556 00:55:02,711 --> 00:55:05,548 this is something that I'm dealing with right now. 557 00:55:05,581 --> 00:55:07,215 - Thanks, Tommy. - Thanks, Tommy. 558 00:55:09,117 --> 00:55:10,753 Yeah, I'm Diedre, an addict. 559 00:55:10,786 --> 00:55:12,755 - Hi, Diedre. - Hi, Diedre. 560 00:55:12,788 --> 00:55:17,259 Uh, related a lot to what I just heard. 561 00:55:17,293 --> 00:55:20,262 I feel like being in a partnership 562 00:55:20,296 --> 00:55:24,800 and parenting in a partnership can be so challenging for me. 563 00:55:24,833 --> 00:55:28,537 Um, I mean, it says in our literature, 564 00:55:28,571 --> 00:55:32,541 it is, like, impossible for us 565 00:55:32,575 --> 00:55:35,444 to form a true partnership with another human being. 566 00:55:35,477 --> 00:55:38,581 I mean, that says it all. 567 00:55:38,614 --> 00:55:41,115 Um... 568 00:55:41,149 --> 00:55:42,885 Because, like, I've, you know... 569 00:55:42,918 --> 00:55:45,153 Like, we don't have relationships, 570 00:55:45,186 --> 00:55:46,689 we take hostages, right? 571 00:55:46,722 --> 00:55:47,690 So like... 572 00:55:49,258 --> 00:55:51,493 Like, we're either, like, dominating 573 00:55:51,527 --> 00:55:53,295 or we're completely underneath. 574 00:55:53,329 --> 00:55:56,865 Like, there's not the, just, the equality, 575 00:55:56,899 --> 00:55:58,901 you know, and I... 576 00:55:58,934 --> 00:56:01,235 I always... I always know 577 00:56:01,270 --> 00:56:04,440 my partner's inventory better than he does. 578 00:56:04,473 --> 00:56:07,710 Like, I always know exactly what's wrong with him, 579 00:56:07,743 --> 00:56:11,647 what he's gotta do, his past, his psychology, everything, 580 00:56:11,680 --> 00:56:13,849 you know what I mean, and the thing is is that 581 00:56:13,882 --> 00:56:16,385 this program teaches me to, 582 00:56:16,418 --> 00:56:18,420 like, stick to my side of the street. 583 00:56:18,454 --> 00:56:21,790 I have to look at what my part is, 584 00:56:21,824 --> 00:56:24,593 what I do, and, you know, 585 00:56:24,627 --> 00:56:26,895 as soon as I'm pointing a finger, 586 00:56:26,929 --> 00:56:30,366 like, it's... I've gotta look at myself. 587 00:56:30,399 --> 00:56:32,868 So, anyway, I'm super grateful. 588 00:56:32,901 --> 00:56:34,235 I pass. 589 00:56:34,269 --> 00:56:36,505 Thanks, Diedre. 590 00:56:43,379 --> 00:56:44,880 All the best. 591 00:56:44,913 --> 00:56:46,448 Take it easy, guys. 592 00:56:46,482 --> 00:56:48,417 Okay, guys, I'm off, I'm really hungry. 593 00:56:48,450 --> 00:56:50,452 I have to get something to eat, so I'll see you later. 594 00:56:50,486 --> 00:56:52,354 All right, all the best. Ciao. Take it easy. 595 00:56:52,388 --> 00:56:53,589 - Bye. - All the best. Ciao. 596 00:56:53,622 --> 00:56:54,890 Ciao. I'm giving you two. 597 00:56:54,923 --> 00:56:56,759 Yeah, I should probably get going too. 598 00:56:56,792 --> 00:56:58,226 Okay, yeah, all right. 599 00:56:58,260 --> 00:56:59,495 - Love you. - Goodnight. 600 00:56:59,528 --> 00:57:00,929 - Okay, love you, sweetie. - Bye. 601 00:57:00,963 --> 00:57:02,798 - Great to see you. - Yeah, same. 602 00:57:02,831 --> 00:57:03,832 - We'll talk later. - Okay. 603 00:57:03,866 --> 00:57:05,434 - Bye. - Ciao. 604 00:57:06,602 --> 00:57:08,871 Hmm, all right, I'm... 605 00:57:08,904 --> 00:57:10,606 Yeah, I walk that way. 606 00:57:10,639 --> 00:57:11,774 Oh. 607 00:57:19,247 --> 00:57:20,549 So... 608 00:57:22,518 --> 00:57:24,453 Are you around for a while? 609 00:57:24,486 --> 00:57:25,921 Yeah, I'm here for the summer. 610 00:57:25,954 --> 00:57:27,556 You are, you're not going anywhere? 611 00:57:27,589 --> 00:57:29,391 - No. - Yeah? 612 00:57:29,425 --> 00:57:32,327 No, I usually like to travel when it's not so crowded. 613 00:57:32,361 --> 00:57:33,996 - Smart idea. - Yeah. 614 00:57:34,029 --> 00:57:37,266 I don't get this Italian thing of everybody leaving at... 615 00:57:37,299 --> 00:57:40,569 Yeah, exactly, and being, like, all packed on the beach. 616 00:57:40,602 --> 00:57:41,704 I get it, but... 617 00:57:41,737 --> 00:57:42,938 - I don't get it. - ...what a drag. 618 00:57:42,971 --> 00:57:44,473 I mean, I get how it happens. 619 00:57:44,506 --> 00:57:46,442 Right, right, right, yeah, yeah. 620 00:57:46,475 --> 00:57:48,477 School holidays, whatever. 621 00:57:48,510 --> 00:57:52,648 No, I have the luxury of traveling off-season, 622 00:57:52,681 --> 00:57:54,917 so I usually take advantage of that. 623 00:57:54,950 --> 00:57:56,885 Do you usually go by yourself? 624 00:57:56,919 --> 00:57:58,520 Um, it depends, actually... 625 00:57:58,554 --> 00:58:01,523 - With friends? - No, I usually go by myself. 626 00:58:01,557 --> 00:58:03,459 You were with that guy for a little while. 627 00:58:03,492 --> 00:58:05,327 - Are you still with him? - Mmm... 628 00:58:05,360 --> 00:58:06,462 No, no? 629 00:58:08,597 --> 00:58:10,332 Um... no. 630 00:58:10,365 --> 00:58:11,533 No, that's finished. 631 00:58:11,567 --> 00:58:12,935 How long ago was that? 632 00:58:12,968 --> 00:58:14,937 Well, it was on and off for like six years, 633 00:58:14,970 --> 00:58:18,373 but finally finished like about a year and a half ago. 634 00:58:18,407 --> 00:58:20,476 I'll... I'll walk you. 635 00:58:20,509 --> 00:58:21,710 Okay. 636 00:58:21,744 --> 00:58:23,345 - Okay? - Yeah. 637 00:58:23,378 --> 00:58:24,546 Thanks. 638 00:58:25,748 --> 00:58:27,316 How long ago? 639 00:58:27,349 --> 00:58:29,618 - About a year and a half ago. - Oh, okay. 640 00:58:32,955 --> 00:58:36,024 And how has that been, like, being alone again? 641 00:58:36,058 --> 00:58:37,392 Good? 642 00:58:37,426 --> 00:58:38,861 Hmm, yes. 643 00:58:38,894 --> 00:58:41,396 - Do you like being alone? - Actually, yes. 644 00:58:41,430 --> 00:58:42,698 Yeah? 645 00:58:42,731 --> 00:58:45,834 At first it was, you know... 646 00:58:45,868 --> 00:58:49,037 Well, at first I was just bummed out 647 00:58:49,071 --> 00:58:51,073 because we tried on and off for so long, 648 00:58:51,106 --> 00:58:55,077 but now I'm pretty happily single, you know. 649 00:58:55,110 --> 00:58:57,846 In fact, I was just talking to a friend of mine 650 00:58:57,880 --> 00:59:00,382 about how much I love sleeping alone. 651 00:59:00,415 --> 00:59:02,618 It's like heaven. 652 00:59:02,651 --> 00:59:05,487 - A whole bed to myself. - Oh, God! 653 00:59:05,521 --> 00:59:08,056 Not me, I think I've always been with someone. 654 00:59:08,090 --> 00:59:10,592 - Oh, really? - Yeah, yeah. 655 00:59:10,626 --> 00:59:13,796 But, I don't know, I never had the opportunity to sleep alone, 656 00:59:13,829 --> 00:59:18,700 I think, so this is my... my first big run of... 657 00:59:18,734 --> 00:59:20,636 - Enjoying yourself. - ...hogging the bed. 658 00:59:22,571 --> 00:59:25,741 You just need a big bed so you have some choices. 659 00:59:27,042 --> 00:59:28,610 You know. 660 00:59:28,644 --> 00:59:31,346 - Right? - Uh, yeah. 661 00:59:31,380 --> 00:59:33,482 That's what I like. I like a nice, big bed. 662 00:59:33,515 --> 00:59:35,684 We're gonna need a bigger bed, it's like... 663 00:59:39,888 --> 00:59:41,857 Hmm. 664 00:59:41,890 --> 00:59:43,992 - Well... - Okay, um... 665 00:59:44,026 --> 00:59:46,728 - This is me. - Yeah, I know, I know. 666 00:59:46,762 --> 00:59:48,664 Okay, well, have a good night, huh? 667 00:59:48,697 --> 00:59:50,632 Thank you. You too. 668 00:59:50,666 --> 00:59:52,868 Thanks for walking me home, and, um, 669 00:59:52,901 --> 00:59:55,504 happy six years. 670 00:59:55,537 --> 00:59:56,805 - Thank you. - That's awesome. 671 00:59:56,839 --> 00:59:58,440 - Thank you. - Yeah, okay. 672 00:59:58,473 --> 01:00:00,075 Okay. 673 01:00:00,108 --> 01:00:03,645 - Make sure you get in. - Thank you. 674 01:00:04,880 --> 01:00:06,682 - Okay, yeah, goodnight. - Goodnight. 675 01:00:06,715 --> 01:00:08,951 - Sleep well. - You too. Thanks. 676 01:01:45,681 --> 01:01:46,982 Oh! 677 01:01:51,553 --> 01:01:53,121 Hey! 678 01:01:58,294 --> 01:01:59,262 Hey! 679 01:02:00,662 --> 01:02:01,863 Hey! 680 01:02:01,897 --> 01:02:03,865 - How are you? - Hey. 681 01:02:03,899 --> 01:02:07,035 Good? Yeah? Was it fun? 682 01:02:07,069 --> 01:02:09,738 Yeah, it's... it's fun. 683 01:02:09,771 --> 01:02:11,606 I missed you guys. 684 01:02:13,075 --> 01:02:15,911 - Okay? - Yes. 685 01:02:17,679 --> 01:02:21,116 We had a great time. 686 01:02:21,149 --> 01:02:24,052 - Umbrella? - Yeah, take the umbrella. 687 01:02:24,086 --> 01:02:27,689 Take the other shoe. Okay, honey. 688 01:02:27,723 --> 01:02:29,124 Okay. 689 01:02:30,592 --> 01:02:32,194 But it was good? 690 01:02:32,227 --> 01:02:35,230 You know, it's always good, you know. 691 01:02:35,264 --> 01:02:38,700 She has this big garden, big things, 692 01:02:38,734 --> 01:02:43,138 and she plays with it, and it's really nice. 693 01:02:43,171 --> 01:02:44,840 I missed you, huh? 694 01:02:49,345 --> 01:02:50,812 Really? 695 01:02:50,846 --> 01:02:52,748 Yeah. 696 01:02:52,781 --> 01:02:56,184 - Really? - Yeah, yeah! 697 01:02:56,218 --> 01:02:58,053 Well, I don't believe it. 698 01:02:58,086 --> 01:02:59,688 - You don't? - No. 699 01:02:59,721 --> 01:03:02,190 - Okay. - You look too good to miss me. 700 01:03:04,192 --> 01:03:05,627 Okay? 701 01:03:06,928 --> 01:03:09,031 So, what's going on here? 702 01:03:09,064 --> 01:03:10,599 I've just been working. 703 01:03:10,632 --> 01:03:12,834 I've just been working, you know? 704 01:03:12,868 --> 01:03:14,770 I'm trying to do this crazy thing 705 01:03:14,803 --> 01:03:17,773 about these, um, scenes with the bear. 706 01:03:17,806 --> 01:03:19,941 And? 707 01:03:19,975 --> 01:03:22,311 I don't know, 'cause you don't want it to be, like, 708 01:03:22,345 --> 01:03:24,246 you know, like a big special effects thing, 709 01:03:24,280 --> 01:03:27,749 but I want the scariness of the bear in there, so... 710 01:03:31,987 --> 01:03:33,722 Clint puts down bar rag 711 01:03:33,755 --> 01:03:36,292 and comes around bar to get a closer look. 712 01:03:36,325 --> 01:03:39,061 Numbers stop, and again, it's a loss. 713 01:03:39,094 --> 01:03:41,330 Woodsman turns to Clint, only this time, 714 01:03:41,364 --> 01:03:45,133 it is the head of a bear in the clothes of the woodsman. 715 01:03:45,167 --> 01:03:47,336 Clint, with no Mitchell in sight, 716 01:03:47,370 --> 01:03:51,239 is in bloody, violent, and extended fight for his life. 717 01:03:52,741 --> 01:03:54,910 Dogs outside going wild. 718 01:05:01,243 --> 01:05:03,778 - You're eating? - Yes. 719 01:05:03,812 --> 01:05:06,047 Why didn't you call me? 720 01:05:06,081 --> 01:05:08,950 I thought... I thought you already ate. 721 01:05:08,984 --> 01:05:10,152 No. 722 01:05:10,185 --> 01:05:11,820 - No? - No. 723 01:05:11,853 --> 01:05:13,922 - Why? - Why didn't you call me? 724 01:05:13,955 --> 01:05:16,224 But why you didn't eat yet? 725 01:05:16,259 --> 01:05:19,895 You know, it's fucking... it's thoughtless. 726 01:05:19,928 --> 01:05:22,398 Come on, I waited... you know, I... 727 01:05:22,431 --> 01:05:25,033 I missed... I sat around all yesterday, 728 01:05:25,066 --> 01:05:27,403 and I made my own dinner, then you make food, 729 01:05:27,436 --> 01:05:29,070 you don't even call me. 730 01:05:29,104 --> 01:05:30,872 I've been waiting to have lunch. 731 01:05:30,906 --> 01:05:32,874 Why you... why you gotta wait for me? 732 01:05:32,908 --> 01:05:34,277 Why you gotta wait for me? 733 01:05:34,310 --> 01:05:36,111 You can cook, you are an adult. 734 01:05:36,144 --> 01:05:38,813 I know, okay, okay, I can cook and I will cook. 735 01:05:38,847 --> 01:05:40,283 I'll cook my own stuff. 736 01:05:40,316 --> 01:05:44,219 Jesus Christ, do you know, I waited for you. 737 01:05:44,253 --> 01:05:47,889 - You know, I wait for you... - No, no, come on... 738 01:05:47,923 --> 01:05:50,992 No, it just bugs me because it's inconsiderate. 739 01:05:51,026 --> 01:05:53,828 I like to eat with you and the baby. 740 01:05:53,862 --> 01:05:55,096 Oh, come on. 741 01:05:55,130 --> 01:05:58,099 What do you mean, "Oh, come on"? 742 01:05:58,133 --> 01:05:59,302 What do you mean? 743 01:06:00,403 --> 01:06:01,903 Yeah, laugh, you know, 744 01:06:01,937 --> 01:06:03,838 you laugh when you know you're full of shit. 745 01:06:03,872 --> 01:06:06,509 - That's what happens. - Can I have at least the freedom 746 01:06:06,542 --> 01:06:10,346 to eat when I want and with who I want 747 01:06:10,379 --> 01:06:13,316 and without busting my balls and blah-blah-blah? 748 01:06:13,349 --> 01:06:16,319 Okay, I don't mean to bust your balls, believe me. 749 01:06:16,352 --> 01:06:19,788 I just try to take care, it's all a little silly, you know? 750 01:06:19,821 --> 01:06:22,791 You talk a lot of shit, you know, you talk a lot of... 751 01:06:24,025 --> 01:06:26,429 ...hippie shit. 752 01:06:26,462 --> 01:06:29,030 - Oh my God. - Why don't you make it for me? 753 01:06:29,064 --> 01:06:31,199 I mean, I'm trying to work. 754 01:06:31,233 --> 01:06:32,834 - Really? - I make it for you. 755 01:06:32,867 --> 01:06:35,136 It's just... it's just common consideration. 756 01:06:35,170 --> 01:06:36,938 Really, I thought you already had. 757 01:06:36,972 --> 01:06:40,309 Being a family, being a couple, you know, 758 01:06:40,343 --> 01:06:42,378 loving someone is being present. 759 01:06:42,411 --> 01:06:44,212 It's about... it's about attention, 760 01:06:44,246 --> 01:06:48,016 it's about... it's about, you know, taking care. 761 01:06:48,049 --> 01:06:50,118 I'm trying to do my thing. 762 01:06:51,420 --> 01:06:53,154 - And... - What is your thing? 763 01:06:53,188 --> 01:06:55,156 - My thing? - Yeah, what is your thing? 764 01:06:56,592 --> 01:06:58,561 "It's your thing, do what you wanna do, 765 01:06:58,594 --> 01:07:01,863 I can't tell you who to sock it to." 766 01:07:01,896 --> 01:07:05,934 Oh, come on. To do what I want, when I want, 767 01:07:05,967 --> 01:07:10,539 everything that I really want, without explaining to somebody... 768 01:07:10,573 --> 01:07:13,342 So I have two children now? 769 01:08:37,926 --> 01:08:39,462 Start your story. 770 01:08:43,769 --> 01:08:45,965 Once I met a boy. 771 01:08:47,864 --> 01:08:49,713 I liked his eyes. 772 01:08:52,887 --> 01:08:55,792 His eyes and his mouth. 773 01:08:58,091 --> 01:09:01,554 I liked his mouth, it was big. 774 01:09:02,346 --> 01:09:03,465 Beautiful. 775 01:09:05,911 --> 01:09:09,960 I remember he started hugging and kissing me. 776 01:09:12,232 --> 01:09:13,855 I fell in love immediately. 777 01:09:20,454 --> 01:09:24,667 I liked his eyes, his smell... 778 01:10:52,227 --> 01:10:54,563 Okay? Don't worry. 779 01:10:57,600 --> 01:10:58,601 Mama? 780 01:11:03,772 --> 01:11:05,274 Mama, Mama? 781 01:11:05,307 --> 01:11:07,510 You know what, I'm gonna go down there. 782 01:11:07,543 --> 01:11:10,479 - Okay? - It's okay, it's okay. 783 01:11:10,513 --> 01:11:13,248 Everything gonna be okay. 784 01:11:25,584 --> 01:11:29,674 Shut up! You're making us crazy. 785 01:11:33,533 --> 01:11:36,446 Somebody call the police! 786 01:11:39,744 --> 01:11:42,665 If you don't stop, I'll come and punch you. 787 01:11:48,182 --> 01:11:50,452 You know, he's freaking out the baby. 788 01:11:50,486 --> 01:11:52,588 I know, I know, I know, I know. 789 01:11:52,621 --> 01:11:54,590 Just... yeah, but just be careful. 790 01:11:54,623 --> 01:11:56,358 - Listen, be careful. - Yeah, yeah, I know. 791 01:11:56,392 --> 01:11:58,527 You know, with these guys, you never know. 792 01:12:26,722 --> 01:12:27,723 Yo! 793 01:12:30,744 --> 01:12:31,966 Stop it! 794 01:12:37,990 --> 01:12:40,762 You are scaring my baby! 795 01:12:42,284 --> 01:12:44,403 Stop it! Shut up! 796 01:12:44,740 --> 01:12:47,476 - ...motherfucker. - Get outta here! 797 01:12:47,509 --> 01:12:50,779 - You speak English? - I don't speak English but I... 798 01:12:52,414 --> 01:12:54,783 Get the fuck outta here, get the fuck outta here. 799 01:12:54,817 --> 01:12:56,619 Get outta here! 800 01:12:57,720 --> 01:12:59,288 Fucking bloody... 801 01:12:59,321 --> 01:13:03,224 Get your shit outta here, come on, go! 802 01:13:04,827 --> 01:13:06,562 - ...I'll destroy you. - Yeah, okay, okay, okay. 803 01:13:06,595 --> 01:13:09,732 Yeah, you're gonna do it? Get outta here, get outta here. 804 01:13:09,765 --> 01:13:11,433 Just get out. 805 01:13:11,467 --> 01:13:13,268 Beat it, beat it. 806 01:13:13,302 --> 01:13:15,437 Come on, be on your way. 807 01:13:15,471 --> 01:13:18,307 Take your food with you. Go. 808 01:13:18,340 --> 01:13:20,174 Oh, my baby, she can't sleep, 809 01:13:20,208 --> 01:13:21,910 you're scaring the shit out of her. 810 01:13:21,944 --> 01:13:23,879 Where is it? 811 01:13:23,912 --> 01:13:25,714 Your baby is sleeping? 812 01:13:25,748 --> 01:13:27,650 Upstairs, upstairs. 813 01:13:27,683 --> 01:13:29,618 So I'm making bothering with you? 814 01:13:29,652 --> 01:13:31,453 You're bothering me. 815 01:13:31,487 --> 01:13:34,256 - It's true? - Yeah, it's true, it's true. 816 01:13:34,289 --> 01:13:35,724 Keeping... 817 01:13:35,758 --> 01:13:37,326 - Yeah. - No anything. 818 01:13:37,359 --> 01:13:38,427 Okay. 819 01:13:39,728 --> 01:13:41,563 We maybe compromises. 820 01:13:41,597 --> 01:13:45,401 Okay, you can sit down, but no more, okay? 821 01:13:45,434 --> 01:13:46,702 Yeah. 822 01:13:46,735 --> 01:13:48,971 I don't want to bother you. 823 01:13:49,004 --> 01:13:50,606 Good. 824 01:13:50,639 --> 01:13:53,241 You're a nice person, give me some coins? 825 01:13:54,576 --> 01:13:56,478 Yeah, I can give you some coins. 826 01:13:57,980 --> 01:14:00,816 Where you come from? 827 01:14:00,849 --> 01:14:02,518 The States. 828 01:14:02,551 --> 01:14:04,787 Which part of States? 829 01:14:04,820 --> 01:14:06,255 New York. 830 01:14:06,288 --> 01:14:07,923 - New York. - How about you? 831 01:14:07,956 --> 01:14:12,828 All of my friends live in here, here, just near here. 832 01:14:12,861 --> 01:14:14,363 They came from New York. 833 01:14:14,396 --> 01:14:16,398 Where are you from? 834 01:14:16,432 --> 01:14:18,467 - Pakistan. - Pakistan? 835 01:14:18,500 --> 01:14:19,768 You know where it is? 836 01:14:19,802 --> 01:14:21,403 I've heard of it. 837 01:14:24,573 --> 01:14:26,408 They are all bullshit. 838 01:14:27,943 --> 01:14:29,578 I know, I know, I know. 839 01:14:39,755 --> 01:14:41,724 Okay, okay, okay. 840 01:14:43,592 --> 01:14:45,260 Fuckin' hell. 841 01:14:50,432 --> 01:14:53,769 That's... that stuff's poison, you know that. 842 01:14:55,337 --> 01:14:56,972 - Enjoy yourself. - Okay. 843 01:14:57,005 --> 01:14:59,608 - Have a good night. - Yes, to you. 844 01:15:00,576 --> 01:15:02,344 See you the next time. 845 01:15:02,377 --> 01:15:04,245 Okay, good luck. 846 01:15:06,048 --> 01:15:07,349 Okay. 847 01:15:11,553 --> 01:15:12,755 Okay. 848 01:15:15,758 --> 01:15:16,992 Goodnight. 849 01:15:20,095 --> 01:15:21,597 Just go. 850 01:15:21,630 --> 01:15:23,298 You're good. 851 01:18:06,862 --> 01:18:08,196 DeeDee! 852 01:19:22,258 --> 01:19:26,580 Anybody have a story? Raise your hand if you do. 853 01:19:28,810 --> 01:19:30,145 Okay. 854 01:19:30,854 --> 01:19:34,951 I left home when I was 19 855 01:19:35,688 --> 01:19:39,640 and I moved abroad. 856 01:19:40,682 --> 01:19:43,650 - Where? - Dubai, in the Emirates. 857 01:19:44,338 --> 01:19:47,374 Good, do it again. 858 01:19:48,146 --> 01:19:50,893 Do the same movements, 859 01:19:50,981 --> 01:19:54,435 but this time tell the whole story. 860 01:19:55,424 --> 01:19:57,357 Now I'm going, I don't care where, 861 01:19:57,403 --> 01:20:02,409 the important thing is that I go far from my family. 862 01:20:03,422 --> 01:20:07,170 I will choose the first place that wants me 863 01:20:07,210 --> 01:20:08,194 and I'll go there. 864 01:20:09,595 --> 01:20:12,373 I'm here, I'm here in Dubai. 865 01:20:15,153 --> 01:20:18,965 I really wanted to come here because I thought 866 01:20:20,028 --> 01:20:23,621 I could find something here that I couldn't find there. 867 01:20:24,045 --> 01:20:26,029 But here there's nothing at all. 868 01:20:27,235 --> 01:20:29,071 So where is he now? 869 01:20:30,906 --> 01:20:33,108 I don't know. 870 01:20:33,141 --> 01:20:36,078 You don't... but he just wrote you, right? 871 01:20:38,780 --> 01:20:40,982 He sent you an email. 872 01:20:41,016 --> 01:20:45,787 Yeah, he sent me some emails during those three years... 873 01:20:45,821 --> 01:20:49,925 Only... ahh, see, I thought he just sent you recently. 874 01:20:49,958 --> 01:20:52,094 - No. - No? Oh. 875 01:20:52,127 --> 01:20:57,132 No, like, a few emails in three years... 876 01:20:57,165 --> 01:21:00,735 - Oh, that's terrible. - ...are not enough for a father. 877 01:21:03,105 --> 01:21:06,241 So you're, you know, so you basically cut him off, 878 01:21:06,275 --> 01:21:07,709 you're angry because he... 879 01:21:07,742 --> 01:21:10,112 - Of course I am. - Yeah. 880 01:21:10,145 --> 01:21:13,282 He... he was everything for me. 881 01:21:13,316 --> 01:21:16,017 So he disappointed you. 882 01:21:16,051 --> 01:21:18,920 He... 883 01:21:18,954 --> 01:21:24,293 He was teaching me to believe in some values. 884 01:21:24,327 --> 01:21:26,061 Mm-hmm. 885 01:21:26,094 --> 01:21:30,132 And he showed me that those values 886 01:21:30,165 --> 01:21:31,400 don't exist. 887 01:21:31,434 --> 01:21:34,669 - Okay. - He destroyed my world. 888 01:21:34,703 --> 01:21:39,908 He destroyed my hope, everything. 889 01:21:39,941 --> 01:21:41,143 Right. 890 01:21:41,176 --> 01:21:42,144 So... 891 01:21:44,079 --> 01:21:47,749 How can it be possible, like, for a father? 892 01:21:49,851 --> 01:21:51,320 I don't know. 893 01:21:51,354 --> 01:21:54,089 I mean, we are... 894 01:21:54,122 --> 01:21:55,857 He made me. 895 01:21:57,493 --> 01:22:00,429 He's supposed to love me, to stay with me, 896 01:22:00,463 --> 01:22:03,698 to take care of me, but he doesn't. 897 01:22:03,732 --> 01:22:07,035 He's completely focused on other stupid stuff. 898 01:22:07,068 --> 01:22:08,770 Right. 899 01:22:10,972 --> 01:22:13,942 I don't... I don't know what to say. 900 01:22:13,975 --> 01:22:16,379 - Anyway... - I mean... yeah. 901 01:22:16,412 --> 01:22:18,347 Let's speak about something more. 902 01:22:18,381 --> 01:22:20,115 Okay, something else. 903 01:22:20,148 --> 01:22:22,451 What about your baby? 904 01:22:22,485 --> 01:22:25,854 She's good, I mean, you know, every day is a little miracle. 905 01:22:25,887 --> 01:22:30,091 She learns lots of stuff, she's talking a lot more. 906 01:22:30,125 --> 01:22:33,028 Um, you know, I love taking her to the park. 907 01:22:33,061 --> 01:22:37,165 I've got some stuff with her mother, but, um, 908 01:22:37,199 --> 01:22:38,334 you know about that. 909 01:22:40,202 --> 01:22:43,306 So, it's hard, you know? 910 01:22:43,339 --> 01:22:46,908 But I'm dealing with it, and, um, you know, 911 01:22:46,942 --> 01:22:49,512 making work and... 912 01:22:49,545 --> 01:22:51,380 I get to talk to you. 913 01:22:53,815 --> 01:22:55,251 Class was good, huh? 914 01:22:55,284 --> 01:22:58,019 Yeah, today was amazing. 915 01:22:58,053 --> 01:23:02,090 Yeah, I love having you in class. 916 01:23:02,123 --> 01:23:03,758 - Thanks. - No, it's nice, 917 01:23:03,792 --> 01:23:06,161 and I'm always happy to see you. 918 01:23:07,530 --> 01:23:10,999 Okay, so, maybe I should go. 919 01:23:11,032 --> 01:23:13,868 Yeah, what are you up to? 920 01:23:13,902 --> 01:23:15,837 I don't know. 921 01:23:15,870 --> 01:23:17,406 You gotta go? 922 01:23:17,440 --> 01:23:19,040 - Maybe, yeah. - Yeah, okay. 923 01:23:19,074 --> 01:23:21,243 Okay, all right, ciao. 924 01:24:03,952 --> 01:24:05,454 Okay, I gotta go. 925 01:24:06,322 --> 01:24:07,822 Okay. 926 01:26:28,196 --> 01:26:30,332 When you touch the fundamental nature 927 01:26:30,366 --> 01:26:33,736 of the ultimate reality of any phenomenon whatsoever, 928 01:26:33,769 --> 01:26:35,638 there is pleasure. 929 01:26:35,671 --> 01:26:38,307 Everything that exists is capable 930 01:26:38,340 --> 01:26:41,577 of eliciting pleasure in your mind, 931 01:26:41,610 --> 01:26:43,211 but you are narrow. 932 01:26:43,244 --> 01:26:45,246 Your mind has neurotic obsessions 933 01:26:45,281 --> 01:26:49,685 such as, "I only like things that are purple." 934 01:26:49,718 --> 01:26:53,589 For you, only purple things are beautiful. 935 01:26:53,622 --> 01:26:56,024 This sort of neurotic, dualistic, 936 01:26:56,057 --> 01:26:59,562 unrealistic way of thinking only gets you into trouble, 937 01:26:59,595 --> 01:27:02,465 but we do it all the time, don't we? 938 01:27:26,822 --> 01:27:28,491 Hey! 939 01:27:33,329 --> 01:27:35,163 What's happening? 940 01:27:35,196 --> 01:27:37,232 How come you came here? 941 01:27:37,266 --> 01:27:39,268 What's with this surprise? 942 01:27:39,301 --> 01:27:40,603 What is this surprise? 943 01:27:46,275 --> 01:27:47,543 Okay, so... 944 01:28:01,790 --> 01:28:03,325 Hey! 945 01:28:06,829 --> 01:28:08,129 Ciao! 946 01:28:09,598 --> 01:28:10,833 Hey, Lisa. 947 01:28:10,866 --> 01:28:12,066 Oh! 948 01:28:13,335 --> 01:28:14,537 Hey! 949 01:28:15,504 --> 01:28:17,171 Oh! 950 01:28:22,176 --> 01:28:24,613 They're having fun, they're playing. 951 01:28:24,647 --> 01:28:28,584 I've been all over the park running after them. 952 01:28:45,601 --> 01:28:48,437 My name's Danny, and I'm an alcoholic. 953 01:28:48,470 --> 01:28:50,104 - Hi, Danny. - Hi, Danny. 954 01:28:50,138 --> 01:28:52,408 I've enjoyed the meeting, you know, 955 01:28:52,441 --> 01:28:55,477 and I'm listening to the stories around the room 956 01:28:55,511 --> 01:28:58,647 and just thinking about, you know, 957 01:28:58,681 --> 01:29:02,585 often when I come here, I'm afraid, you know. 958 01:29:02,618 --> 01:29:04,620 The thing that's in my mind most 959 01:29:04,653 --> 01:29:06,255 is feeling sorry for myself 960 01:29:06,288 --> 01:29:08,490 because everybody else is going to the pub, 961 01:29:08,524 --> 01:29:12,695 and I have to fucking come here and listen to people talking 962 01:29:12,728 --> 01:29:15,631 and, you know, 963 01:29:15,664 --> 01:29:17,633 and I think about the way it was, 964 01:29:17,666 --> 01:29:19,768 like, going to the pub with a pint in the hand, 965 01:29:19,802 --> 01:29:22,438 cracking the jokes, and all the rest of it. 966 01:29:22,471 --> 01:29:25,341 So I come here and I'm feeling sorry for myself, 967 01:29:25,374 --> 01:29:28,344 but I'm quickly reminded of, you know, 968 01:29:28,377 --> 01:29:32,414 how good it is to be sober and, you know, 969 01:29:32,448 --> 01:29:34,717 I'm grateful because this week, as you all know, 970 01:29:34,750 --> 01:29:38,787 Noemi has been going through, you know, she has cancer, 971 01:29:38,821 --> 01:29:41,757 and, um, she did treatment already 972 01:29:41,790 --> 01:29:44,293 and things have been going really well, 973 01:29:44,326 --> 01:29:49,230 but, um, you know, we're going for a routine test this week, 974 01:29:49,264 --> 01:29:52,568 and unfortunately, the fucking thing's come back, 975 01:29:52,601 --> 01:29:56,338 you know, and it's not life-threatening, you know, 976 01:29:56,372 --> 01:29:59,942 by no means are we looking at death or anything like that, 977 01:29:59,975 --> 01:30:04,446 but when I come here and I'm feeling sorry for myself 978 01:30:04,480 --> 01:30:07,716 because I have to sit here and listen to people, 979 01:30:07,750 --> 01:30:09,585 and then I think about the reality 980 01:30:09,618 --> 01:30:13,221 that, you know, my future wife is facing, 981 01:30:13,255 --> 01:30:17,559 it brings in the sharp focus, the, you know, 982 01:30:17,593 --> 01:30:19,628 the selfish, self-centered nature 983 01:30:19,662 --> 01:30:21,764 of what it is that I suffer from, 984 01:30:21,797 --> 01:30:29,338 and it reminds me of how lucky I am to be here, you know. 985 01:30:29,371 --> 01:30:30,839 That's all I've got for this evening. 986 01:30:30,873 --> 01:30:31,974 Thanks very much. 987 01:30:32,007 --> 01:30:34,910 - Thanks, Danny. - Thanks, Danny. 988 01:30:34,943 --> 01:30:36,945 My name is Souten, I'm an alcoholic. 989 01:30:36,979 --> 01:30:38,514 - Hi, Souten. - Hi, Souten. 990 01:30:38,547 --> 01:30:40,516 When I was about 19 years old, 991 01:30:40,549 --> 01:30:44,319 I was already 13 years drinking and doing drugs. 992 01:30:44,353 --> 01:30:48,290 I rock bottom big time. 993 01:30:48,323 --> 01:30:50,893 I came in AA, somebody helped me, 994 01:30:50,926 --> 01:30:53,796 and I stayed in the program for eight years, 995 01:30:53,829 --> 01:30:58,734 and then it stopped, and I picked up one drink, 996 01:30:58,767 --> 01:31:02,705 and I was fucked again for another 18 years. 997 01:31:02,738 --> 01:31:04,840 Four years ago, I rock bottom 998 01:31:04,873 --> 01:31:07,643 a little different than the first time I rock bottom. 999 01:31:07,676 --> 01:31:09,445 I was in my house, 1000 01:31:09,478 --> 01:31:12,581 and there were all people I don't know in my house. 1001 01:31:12,614 --> 01:31:16,952 Everywhere were bottles with booze on the floors, 1002 01:31:16,985 --> 01:31:19,755 and cocaine on the table, 1003 01:31:19,788 --> 01:31:23,492 and women in my bed who I don't know. 1004 01:31:23,525 --> 01:31:25,661 And the worst thing is that my wife, 1005 01:31:25,694 --> 01:31:31,266 she was in the airplane coming from Amsterdam back home, 1006 01:31:31,300 --> 01:31:33,936 and I kick everybody out of my house, 1007 01:31:33,969 --> 01:31:37,473 I clean my house, and when I put the last bottle 1008 01:31:37,506 --> 01:31:40,576 in the busta nero, in the trash bag, 1009 01:31:40,609 --> 01:31:45,280 the taxi came up with my wife, and I run to the bathroom, 1010 01:31:45,314 --> 01:31:48,817 and I had this mirror moment, I looked in the mirror 1011 01:31:48,851 --> 01:31:54,723 after 18 years and I saw myself totally white with the red eyes. 1012 01:31:54,757 --> 01:31:56,792 And I thought, "Fuck, man, that's not you, 1013 01:31:56,825 --> 01:31:59,895 that's the devil," and there it hit me, 1014 01:31:59,928 --> 01:32:03,465 the little... something told me in my ears, 1015 01:32:03,499 --> 01:32:07,536 "You have to do something about your life, man." 1016 01:32:07,569 --> 01:32:09,304 And I did. 1017 01:32:09,338 --> 01:32:12,441 So I did a year full, every day a meeting. 1018 01:32:12,474 --> 01:32:16,879 That was my first sober year, and it was a miracle. 1019 01:32:16,912 --> 01:32:18,947 And then miracles started happening. 1020 01:32:18,981 --> 01:32:20,382 - Hey! - Can you give me a lift? 1021 01:32:20,415 --> 01:32:21,717 Yeah, come on. 1022 01:32:21,750 --> 01:32:22,951 All right, I'll see ya later on then. 1023 01:32:22,985 --> 01:32:25,420 Good luck, all the best, take it easy. 1024 01:32:25,454 --> 01:32:30,425 I just want to be free, free from all the bullshit. 1025 01:32:33,896 --> 01:32:35,564 I must... I must be careful. 1026 01:32:35,597 --> 01:32:38,100 Yeah, okay. No, I'll walk you down. 1027 01:32:38,133 --> 01:32:40,402 Oh, no, I'm coming with you. 1028 01:32:40,435 --> 01:32:42,437 You're coming... Oh, you're coming. 1029 01:32:42,471 --> 01:32:44,506 Watch your step. 1030 01:32:47,843 --> 01:32:49,411 Okay. 1031 01:32:57,719 --> 01:33:01,890 It's just, uh, becoming more and more a problem, you know, 1032 01:33:01,924 --> 01:33:06,061 and I know it, uh, has to do with the baby 1033 01:33:06,094 --> 01:33:08,530 sleeping with us, but I mean, uh... 1034 01:33:08,564 --> 01:33:10,465 But the baby has its own bed, doesn't it? 1035 01:33:10,499 --> 01:33:11,600 No, no. 1036 01:33:11,633 --> 01:33:13,669 No, she fucking sleeps with us. 1037 01:33:13,702 --> 01:33:15,404 So she's using the bed? 1038 01:33:15,437 --> 01:33:17,039 Well, I mean, you know, 1039 01:33:17,072 --> 01:33:20,642 ever since... ever since that baby was born, everything changed. 1040 01:33:20,676 --> 01:33:24,780 You know, I don't know, we just don't, uh... 1041 01:33:24,813 --> 01:33:28,150 Yeah, it changed like overnight. 1042 01:33:28,183 --> 01:33:31,453 What I think is happening here, I think, 1043 01:33:31,486 --> 01:33:37,426 is that she is living out a childhood experience. 1044 01:33:37,459 --> 01:33:41,029 The scenes which are occurring now between you and her, 1045 01:33:41,063 --> 01:33:43,599 I would think that they probably reflect 1046 01:33:43,632 --> 01:33:46,668 what was happening in the house when she was a child, 1047 01:33:46,702 --> 01:33:48,704 and she's provoking that. 1048 01:33:48,737 --> 01:33:54,409 She has created this white... white knight in shining armor 1049 01:33:54,443 --> 01:33:57,679 that she idolizes, but in a sense, 1050 01:33:57,713 --> 01:34:00,015 you can't... you should not take away that figure 1051 01:34:00,048 --> 01:34:01,917 because that figure, for the moment, 1052 01:34:01,950 --> 01:34:03,652 is holding her together. 1053 01:34:07,589 --> 01:34:10,959 The big problem is, I have such fucking rage about this 1054 01:34:10,993 --> 01:34:13,729 'cause I know I have no place to, uh... 1055 01:34:13,762 --> 01:34:15,163 To discharge it. 1056 01:34:18,000 --> 01:34:20,102 But that's the number one issue at the moment. 1057 01:34:20,135 --> 01:34:22,671 Why does that tie up to the anger? 1058 01:34:22,704 --> 01:34:27,175 Because the anger occupies so much space in your life. 1059 01:34:27,209 --> 01:34:30,779 There's very little energy left for anything else, 1060 01:34:30,812 --> 01:34:34,650 so if you create areas of interest 1061 01:34:34,683 --> 01:34:36,585 for you, like empathy for people, 1062 01:34:36,618 --> 01:34:38,153 you're involved in their lives. 1063 01:34:38,186 --> 01:34:41,823 Energy flows there, so there is less energy for the anger. 1064 01:34:41,857 --> 01:34:44,026 Look, we are like... when we come into AA, 1065 01:34:44,059 --> 01:34:46,929 we're like lost souls, lost fucking souls. 1066 01:34:46,962 --> 01:34:49,031 Your soul is either hanging off the fucking tree 1067 01:34:49,064 --> 01:34:52,134 or it's over there, and you have to get it back, 1068 01:34:52,167 --> 01:34:56,972 and by becoming human, but joining with the other gods, 1069 01:34:57,005 --> 01:35:01,810 uh, slowly it got accommodated sort of in its own fucking time. 1070 01:35:03,245 --> 01:35:05,213 And you have... you become your own self, 1071 01:35:05,247 --> 01:35:08,817 and you give yourself your dignity, not she. 1072 01:35:08,850 --> 01:35:12,955 That's... then the codependency ends there at that stage, 1073 01:35:12,988 --> 01:35:13,989 you understand? 1074 01:35:22,898 --> 01:35:25,000 Interior: cafe, nightfall. 1075 01:35:25,033 --> 01:35:27,836 The two enter cafe and make their way to the bar. 1076 01:35:27,869 --> 01:35:31,106 Clint moves behind bar and prepares them warm drinks, 1077 01:35:31,139 --> 01:35:33,008 knowing already what they want. 1078 01:35:33,041 --> 01:35:34,977 They speak to each other in Russian, 1079 01:35:35,010 --> 01:35:36,878 and whether Clint knows the language, 1080 01:35:36,912 --> 01:35:38,914 it is also hard to tell. 1081 01:35:38,947 --> 01:35:40,983 After encouragement from the mother, 1082 01:35:41,016 --> 01:35:43,051 the girl stands up and opens her clothes 1083 01:35:43,085 --> 01:35:44,987 to reveal she is pregnant. 1084 01:35:45,020 --> 01:35:46,822 Clint's eyes come alive. 1085 01:35:46,855 --> 01:35:49,925 The feeling is as if they traversed the galaxy 1086 01:35:49,958 --> 01:35:52,861 and now were its only two inhabitants. 1087 01:35:52,894 --> 01:35:55,597 On the furs, they begin to make love, 1088 01:35:55,630 --> 01:35:58,000 both breathing in rhythm as one. 1089 01:35:58,033 --> 01:36:01,036 They come together. It sounds like music. 1090 01:37:56,785 --> 01:37:58,653 Um, I'm tired. 1091 01:38:13,969 --> 01:38:16,004 I'm... I'm gonna go to sleep. 1092 01:38:16,037 --> 01:38:18,274 I'm sorry, I'm really sorry. 1093 01:38:41,930 --> 01:38:43,031 Fuck. 1094 01:39:35,551 --> 01:39:36,885 Fuck. 1095 01:42:10,706 --> 01:42:13,342 Take this. 1096 01:42:13,376 --> 01:42:15,210 It's all I have. 1097 01:44:32,809 --> 01:44:33,897 Good evening. 1098 01:44:35,368 --> 01:44:37,479 A quick coffee, please. 1099 01:44:47,903 --> 01:44:49,689 - Here's your coffee. - Thanks. 1100 01:44:53,298 --> 01:44:54,388 See you, thanks. 1101 01:45:16,358 --> 01:45:17,826 Yo! 1102 01:45:17,860 --> 01:45:19,461 Hey! 1103 01:45:20,563 --> 01:45:21,864 Goddamn it, what are you... 1104 01:45:21,897 --> 01:45:25,099 - Just stop it! - Where are you going? 1105 01:45:25,133 --> 01:45:27,503 - Why don't you wait for me? - Listen, you stop. 1106 01:45:27,536 --> 01:45:29,471 You know damn well I need you! 1107 01:45:29,505 --> 01:45:31,239 I need you to go to the... 1108 01:45:34,643 --> 01:45:35,644 What's wrong with you? 1109 01:45:35,678 --> 01:45:37,245 Don't scream at her! 1110 01:45:38,764 --> 01:45:39,968 Fuck you! 1111 01:45:40,449 --> 01:45:42,318 - What? Stop what? - Don't touch me! 1112 01:45:42,351 --> 01:45:44,118 What are you doing? We just go out... 1113 01:45:45,654 --> 01:45:47,489 ...and you don't even help me with anything! 1114 01:45:47,523 --> 01:45:48,357 Stop it! 1115 01:45:49,358 --> 01:45:50,726 You're a big problem! 1116 01:45:50,759 --> 01:45:52,494 I need you, I need you. 1117 01:45:52,528 --> 01:45:54,128 Why... why did we go out? 1118 01:45:54,162 --> 01:45:56,130 - To fix the lamp! - Oh my God. 1119 01:45:56,164 --> 01:45:58,132 What do you? You run off. What the fuck? 1120 01:45:58,166 --> 01:46:00,469 This is not about what you do, look at you! 1121 01:46:00,502 --> 01:46:01,804 What? You're the problem! 1122 01:46:01,837 --> 01:46:03,339 You're the fucking problem! 1123 01:46:03,372 --> 01:46:04,773 Don't scream at her! 1124 01:46:04,807 --> 01:46:08,209 Look at you, you look insane! 1125 01:46:10,577 --> 01:46:11,963 What happened? 1126 01:46:12,062 --> 01:46:13,380 He's crazy! 1127 01:46:13,649 --> 01:46:14,717 You are the problem! 1128 01:46:14,909 --> 01:46:16,091 What happened? 1129 01:46:16,318 --> 01:46:17,453 That's my baby! 1130 01:46:17,918 --> 01:46:20,460 Did they steal your wallet? 1131 01:46:20,532 --> 01:46:21,579 Nothing! 1132 01:46:22,000 --> 01:46:23,190 Nothing! 1133 01:46:29,898 --> 01:46:31,199 Fuck. 1134 01:46:36,839 --> 01:46:38,874 Fucking shit! 1135 01:46:43,779 --> 01:46:45,514 Fucking bitch! 1136 01:46:47,516 --> 01:46:48,817 What the... 1137 01:46:54,323 --> 01:46:55,524 Shit! 1138 01:47:10,806 --> 01:47:15,377 If you really check up deeper what you do, 1139 01:47:15,411 --> 01:47:18,447 what you did, since you were born up to now, 1140 01:47:18,480 --> 01:47:22,618 which is really worthwhile to bring the true happiness 1141 01:47:22,651 --> 01:47:24,720 and the joyful life, what you did? 1142 01:47:24,753 --> 01:47:25,854 You check up. 1143 01:47:29,358 --> 01:47:32,294 You check up. Don't look others. 1144 01:47:32,327 --> 01:47:34,363 You check up your own action. 1145 01:47:41,270 --> 01:47:44,707 You have your body, your speech, your mind. 1146 01:47:44,740 --> 01:47:46,675 These three. 1147 01:47:46,709 --> 01:47:50,913 Okay, these three actions, what you did worthwhile? 1148 01:47:53,482 --> 01:47:55,249 You check up that way. 1149 01:47:55,284 --> 01:47:56,852 It's so simple. 1150 01:49:46,128 --> 01:49:47,596 Look at me. 1151 01:49:47,629 --> 01:49:49,064 Look at me! 1152 01:49:49,097 --> 01:49:51,133 Look at me! 1153 01:49:51,166 --> 01:49:52,901 Look at me! 1154 01:49:52,935 --> 01:49:55,037 Oh my God! 1155 01:49:58,674 --> 01:50:00,108 No! 1156 01:50:03,879 --> 01:50:05,781 Pull. 1157 01:50:05,814 --> 01:50:07,616 Pull! 1158 01:50:07,649 --> 01:50:09,151 Stop it! 1159 01:50:10,786 --> 01:50:13,021 Stop it! 1160 01:50:15,557 --> 01:50:18,927 You make like you're insane! 1161 01:50:18,961 --> 01:50:22,164 I got enough of you! 1162 01:50:22,197 --> 01:50:25,000 I can't stand you! 1163 01:50:25,033 --> 01:50:29,471 I don't love you, I'm sorry, I don't love you! 1164 01:53:57,079 --> 01:53:58,680 Bada. 1165 01:54:00,422 --> 01:54:05,422 Subtitles by explosiveskull www.OpenSubtitles.org 1165 01:54:06,305 --> 01:55:06,509 Please rate this subtitle at www.osdb.link/79rk9 Help other users to choose the best subtitles